I don't know what is wrong with me.

I am a 17 year old girl, and I am almost certain there is something seriously wrong with me.

I can't be alone, I get really upset at the thought of being left alone, at first I didn't like my boyfriend going out because I would be sat on my own, but then it got worse, it's at the point now that I cry my eyes out if my mum or brothers leave me alone in the house.

I went to the doctors a while ago and I was referred to counselling, after 10 sessions I didn't contact the women again as I thought I was a bit better, but I'm not... and I feel like if I go back to the doctors, they may think I'm making it up because I haven't mentioned it in so long.

Sometimes i feel like hurting myself, but I don't because people would notice. I have hurt myself before a few years ago but I haven't done anything like that in a while.

I just feel so stressed all the time, I suffered from alopecia when I was younger and lost a lot of hair from one side of my head... If I do something wrong and my mum or anyone shouts at me I burst out crying, I feel like I can't do anything right at the moment, i get so stressed and upset.

Also if I can't find my shoes or if there is no drinks in the house, stupid things like that I can feel myself about to cry but i hold back and just get on with it..

I think I have a serious problem, it's all i seem to do. I've been keeping a diary, I cry everyday, one of the days i cried 5 times! When i feel okay through the day it usually gets to bed time and then i'll cry myself to sleep.

I never want to go to college any more either

Please give me some advice of what could be wrong with me.

Hi there,
sounds like you are in a bad place right now. It is quite obvious what's wrong with you, dont be scared to approach a doctor, they are there to help, not judge people, that's not what they do. You have really bad depression, associated anxiety, and serious self worth / confidence issues. and I am sure there is so much more going on with you that you cant fit into a single post. please stop searching for answers and get some genuine help asap. It is interesting that you said ''stopped seeing the councillor because I thought I was better''
clearly the counselling was of some help to you, but then you stopped going - and you were back to square one. Getting better is a process which can take time. You did not mention that your doctor prescribed you anything for depression or your anxiety? so I can only assume they didnt. Can you tell them how you really feel, that you cried 5 times in one day for example, thoughts about self harm? I hope that you can feel comfortable enough to go back to see your doctor and the take up the counselling sessions again / try a different counsellor. If you held back from both the doctor and the counsellor about what was really going on in your head and your daily life then they would not have been able to give you the proper help that you need. It is not a dead end, you need to try this avenue again. I really wish you well.

Thank you all for your responses.

I have said before that i think i am depressed or have anxiety but my mum believes if i do then she would have noticed before as my auntie has depression.

I don't want to go pestering the doctors, i feel like i am mithering them, i've been to them a lot this year about my blackouts, which are all under control now. It turns out i have low blood pressure, which i suppose could be an explanation why i sleep a lot, i just feel like when there is nothing else to do just go to sleep! Stupid really because i can't sleep proper through the night then:(

I have dreams that are associated with panic, but the thing is, i don't know what it is i'm suppose to be panicking over?!

I'm just so confused..

The doctor didn't perscribe me any tablets when i last went about it, however i was perscribed the pill when i was 12 to help 'even out my hormones' as they put it, because all i did at that time was cry & lash out at everyone.

It could just be me over-reacting i guess..

I'll book an appointment anyway and try to explain how i've been feeling and what i think is wrong with me. I can self-refer myself back to see the counsellor any time(might be worth ringing up and asking if i can book a few sessions?)

Thanks again everyone x

Well I would encourage your mom to let the doctors do the diagnosing, as she is not a professional, and depression and/or anxiety can manifest itself uniquely in any individual. The experiences of your aunt, may not look exactly like yours because you are two differt people with differing personalities and physiologies.

As far as bothering the doctors...you are not, it is thier job to treat you! If you read enough posts here, you will learn that you often have to keep at it and be persistent in your treatment. You must be your own best advocate and fight for yourself! If one doctor or therapy is not working for you...keep looking until you find one that does!

I am so glad to hear that you will consider trying therapy again! I can see from your posts that you want to feel better and be well...and you can! With hard work and detmination to follow through with your treatment, you will make it!:)

Keep posting!

S.C.

Great job! I hope it goes really well and you get some answers.:) Yes, please post after your appointment and let us know how it went.

Talk to you soon,

S.C.

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