health worries, help me plz

I've come to the conclusion that I am a hypochondriac. I am 19 years old, obese, and scared. I would be carefree over the years until recently. I develop an abscess on my neck about 3 months ago and everything went down hill. I still have the abcsess on my neck and ive been seeing a surgeon . He did a culture on it and he told me it was an infection. The abcsess is kinda big in the back of neck it hasnt thrown out puss in 3 days but its swollen. Is it normal for it b like this. Ive been on 3 different antibiotics and its not gone yet.I started googling and convinced myself that I had lymphoma . Till this day I still believe I have it. I went to ER and got blood work and chest X-ray and everything was fine. Would anything had came up if I did. I do have a little lump in my armpit and a cough but it's been cold. I have this Cough for a month or so. The ER dr didnt seem concerned.Everything in my head just seems to add up. I bet if I hadn't googled I wouldn't even know. I am scared of the future and live in fear. I wasn't like this 4 months ago. I did have health worries but not like this. I just want to go to the dr all the time. And want test done. I'm planning on going to the Dr again but what test should I ask for.? I had a CBC test done less then a month ago. Can I ask for an CT scan or MRI. Had anyone ever self diagnosed and turned out to be false.need positive stories

Post Edited (joavila92) : 7/27/2012 11:29:44 AM (GMT-6)

thanks, yes it's an abscess.the surgeon didn't want to remove it, it's super swollen and its big, no more puts coming out though. I have apes size lump on my armpit for 2 months and a cough for 1 month. My thyroid is fine I believe, my Dr tested it about 3 months ago and everything was ok. What killing me is the lump on my armpit and the cough. I try to ignore it but at times I can't.

I thanks, my mine does okay tricks on me or so I think. I feel everything. I touch all over my body and feel bumps everywhere. I was good for about a week or so until recently I started getting anxious and depressed again. My Mon says everything is ok but idk. IM scared. I feel like what if I wait to long then it's too late.

I worry because my abscess is really big. It's all the way on the top of my neck going down a bit. What if it ranches something back there. It hasn't gone away.it's been 3-4 months since I got it. should I call the surgeon that was treating it. I mean it's only was treated was antibiotics. I hear people always get surgery on it. I just want it gone

Joavila,

I think you should call your doctor/surgeon about it and tell him/her about your concerns. My sister has an abscess on the back of her neck as well, I might have already told you this, but it comes and goes, sometimes it stays for months and sometimes it doesn't show up at all. She went to a surgeon about it and they checked it out, said it wasn't cancerous or anything to worry about, even the blood work came back normal. some people do get surgery to get them taken off, however it is up to the doctor if he/she feels like it really should be taken off or not.

Everything will be okay. My question to you is "if the lump checks out fine and you are in NO danger at all and you are healthy, would it bother you if the lump just stayed there? sort of like a mole does" What if the lump is actually something like a mole, that is not going to harm you, is not cancerous, it's just there on your body.

sorry for th tree winning. But it's big and it hurts, sometime I feel sore from my neck or when I sleep it's uncomfortable. I am going to call the surgeon and ask

Thanks for the advice Enduronman. :) I personally know I am in control, but that knowledge flies out the window when my anxiety is at it's max. I admit that I am getting betting when it comes to my anxious thoughts, the physical symptoms seem to be going away, of course it has been about a week that I have been free of my nervous tendencies, but still.

You made a comment about having no degree, as of now I have been in college majoring in psychology for over 5 years now, even with all my knowledge about mental illnesses, neurotransmitters, and the power of the mind, it's still hard to keep my anxiety at bay.

Health anxiety creeping in...only lasted a couple hours doing ok. I just think and think and everything adds up in my head. I am scared. Tomorrow I have a concert and I don't want to be this way there, I want to enjoy it. it's so hard to boot be anxious when in TV commercial popup of cancer patients and stuff like that. It's hard.