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Posted 8/5/2012 12:41 AM (GMT 0)
Basically this happened over a year ago (I have Ulcerative Colitis) anxiety. But this time round it's a lot worse and I can't function at all and not sure what to do as I feel so depressed.

I split up with my girlfriend around 4 months ago. At the time I wasn't "bothered" I just move on I have always been like that im not an emotional person. But in the last month my hormones have crashed again testosterone low etc so I feel this may be contributing to the issue.

I keep getting really upset like randomly "emotional" but at first wasn't sure why just started getting teary and crying and having knot thing in stomach like I had done something really bad feeling.

I kept thinking of ex gf all the time and it's playing on my mind. Now it's in my dreams but proper in-depth and I don't sleep well at all but when I do it happens every time it's in my head and I wake up feeling v sick and that knot feeling and emotional but I don't want to talk to anyone just feel really "fragile" or something.

Taking fair amount of vallium/diazepam to knock me out and try get rid of it. But I sleep a lot during the day. But generally speaking I can't function very well with this I go to the gym and it's in my head and just don't want to go outside driving me insane :(. Anyone got any remedies? Usually it comes and goes but now it seems constant. Thanks.
Posted 8/5/2012 1:14 AM (GMT 0)
I was constantly thinking of my girlfriend 24/7 when we broke up for the next year, and the thought of her consumed me constantly. It is an anxiety with consuming thoughts. A year later my life turned upside down:(... But she is not eating at my mind 24/7. Time heals everything when it comes to relationships. She is just the girl I used to know. Limit any type of contact with her and hang out with your friends and family 24/7 and distract yourself from her, its harder said then done but when it comes to girls you will eventually forget about her. And about your health I am sorry to hear, I also am in chronic pain and I know its really hard to do stuff while your in pain. Get better and God bless
Posted 8/5/2012 3:00 AM (GMT 0)
I would see a dr about it, may be depression, it causes u to get really emotional over everything or for no reason at all. There's days I will cry mist of the day and I have no idea why. Stress of course can make it worse. Sleeping during the day instead of at night makes it worse or sleeping to much will also. U probably don't really miss ur ex as much as u feel u do since it has just started after that long. Depression will make u think of things that might make u emotional. A good therapist will be able to tell u if it's depression. Best of luck. Let us know how things are going. Also the more u get out the better u will feel!! U will probably have to force urself to do it!! U tend to push everyone and everything away with depression!! But making urself sleep more with meds will make it worse. Continue to come here and get support and just get ur feelings out. Writing them down helps too!!
Posted 8/5/2012 11:14 PM (GMT 0)
Thx for replies. I don't really like the DR as I feel they are never on my level. I've been thru psychiatrists etc before when the doctor has sent them into my room when in hospital. And attempted to refer me to them but I don't like to bring it out I prefer to deal with it in my own way I usually just get on with things but this time it's different. They also usually make me fill out bits of paper with random questions on them about feelings etc but again this is no use I don't want lots of drugs like anti depressants etc.

Even though you say limit contact i've already kept emailing back and now to ask to meet up but it's because I feel I have to rather then I want to. I find it hard to connect with people emotionally, and I never show emotion etc but she was the first girl I've loved and I connected with properly. I have friends im ignoring and girls I have been meeting who I am ignoring as well because of this issue it's not fair on them but I can't help it :/.

The diazpam helps as I can sleep and I usually don't have the dreams/nightmares when I take it, but I usually wake up about 9am eat then sleep again until late afternoon. Stuck thinking about it though if a friend or family is talking to me about anything say even a story and it props into my mind my stomach drops and I don't take in anything they are saying and shut off. Ruining my life so think this is the only way to rectify the situation unfortunatly.
Posted 8/6/2012 2:04 AM (GMT 0)
Hi tank and welcome to the A/P forum!

It looks like you have received some great support here already, so I will just add my well wishes for you and your situation!

I also invite and encourage you to post here with us anytime.:)

Talk to you soon,

Scaredy Cat
Posted 8/7/2012 12:46 AM (GMT 0)
Was up.until 4am last night took 3 vallium to make me sleep and slept a lot of today but now it's nearly 2am still can't sleep and been s bad day always on my mind. Had mood swings getting angry at things I shouldn't heads a mess. Still getting emotional as well.
Posted 8/7/2012 3:26 AM (GMT 0)
I am so sorry to hear that you are going through a tough time right now tank.

Have you considered looking for someone to talk to about this?

It seems that you have a lot of stressors in your life currently...and it might help to seek some therapy for relief of the anxiety.

This could also help you to lessen the amount of medication that you are taking...which could help get you back to some healthier sleep patterns. (benzodiazepams can cause dependency issues, so you will want to be careful with these)

Sometimes we need to seek help for our mental states, just as we do for our physical self.:)

I hope that you can get the answers that you need soon, and start to feel better. Keep posting, and know that we understand and care.

S.C.
Posted 8/10/2012 1:07 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks. It been worse over the last 2 days I stopped taking valium I can't stop being upset though have been in contact with ex and I cant stop crying etc it's so bad then I shake tremble . 2am and break down again. I bottle my emotions up over last years it's been v hard life for me now it's coming out I can't stop. Telling her how much I miss n love her. I don't know if it's hormones my test is low I have no interest in anything I jabbed myself with a bottle of test to try sort this mess in my emotions and head hopefully it kicks in soon as I'm at my lowest.
Posted 8/10/2012 4:24 AM (GMT 0)
I am not sure what you mean by 'I jabbed myself with a bottle of test'

I hope that you are not talking about self-harm/self medicating. I know that things seem bleak at the moment, but there is always help, and therefore hope.

I hope that you will consider making an appointment with your doctor. Did you stop the Valium cold turkey? If so, then you may be dealing with the added burden of aburpt sessation side effects.

Please make the call to your doc...and consider asking for a therapy referral while you are there. It could be the biggest favor and best thing that you have ever done for yourself...and you are worth that!

Let us know how you are doing soon.

S.C.
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