Hi Reshtel,
I'm 45 and have suffered from depression from all the way back to my single digit years. Also have had years of SAD (seasonal affective disorder). I developed severe anxiety in my late teens (along with the depression). I have been to numerous Psychiatrists and so many different therapists over the years, that I can estimate it's been at least 15 or more. Over the years I have been on practically every antidepressant on the market and also medication for anxiety. I have also tried treatment out of my home state and have had brain scans done by a well known Dr. Antidepressants have never really worked. However, one medication that I take as needed for Anxiety (every day) has helped some.
I have been on disability for about
14 years now because of my depression/anxiety (and extreme problems with SAD during the winters). In addition to individual therapy, I have been in group therapy and public support groups.
I have never used street drugs. I am gay and came totally out of the closet when I was 26. I thought my anxiety and depression was (and must have been) the real route of my depression, so when I was running out of "demons" to tackle at possible causes, I came out of the closet thinking that this was the only issue that I hadn't tackled yet. Overall it was a "better than expected" experience with a lot of support in general. However, the route of my depression/anxiety still exists to this day.
I used to be very shy and afraid of what people think of me. I'd be afraid of speaking my mind or feelings and always tried to fit in instead of being who I was. I used to just be one of society's "Sheep." Long story short, I am who I am and have no apologies. I'm of course not just talking about
being gay....I'm talking about
all aspects of who I am. So, I figured after doing SO MUCH difficult and deep emotional work on myself and self inventory, that this depression and anxiety would be cured. Well, it didn't go away....and I still have it.
Yes, I too have accidentally (through a surgery) found Opiate-based pain medication was the only thing that has helped. No, it doesn't give me euphoria but it does help relieve my depression and anxiety to a level where I can function better. Of course I am not prescribed them for depression.....just that I have noticed what you have experienced.
I just joined this site today after doing some research on this topic. I joined thinking that I would be able to get in touch with you directly, but when I clicked on your display name....it only displayed your posts and no way to e mail you.
Maybe the moderator could help me out with how to contact this poster "Reshtel".....????
<Edit> I removed your comment re use of recreational drug. Also Reshtel has not been seen for a couple of years.
Thank you for understanding my reason for editing your post. Kindly, Kitt
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 7/13/2014 1:33:45 PM (GMT-6)