Worst thing i could have ever bought!

Hello everyone I'm new here i'm a 24 Year old male. I have panic anxiety and depression issues, and their really kicking my butt lately. I'm employeed and work on different job sites almost everyday and that affects me because there is not schedule or structure. Anyway i bought a pulse ox meter from a yard sale of a man who had passed away, and im CONSTANTLY checking it and its really causing more stress and worry than anything. I have "bradycardia" which is a low resting heart rate, mine usually sits aroudn 55bpm and has been lower recently especially at bedtime. Im told that its common in young healthy athletes and people in good shape, well i dont exercise other than constantly walking at work although i was Extremely active as a kid. The worst part of having this pulse ox meter is that im worried about my heart and worried about having a heart attack! I've been to the Cardiologist and they did an EKG which showed inverted T-wave which they didnt seem to concerned about concidering they scheduled me for a later time to do a Echo echo bubble and stress test along with holter which i never followed up with thanks to work. Heart diseases runs in my family, my grandfather had congestive heart failure which lead to several heart attacks and heart surgeries including pacemaker and defib. anyway i guess what i'm trying to get at is How can i be normal again! without taking ativan or anything else. thank you in advance for reading my pitty party story lol.

thank you for reading, as I read it back after posting I realize I didn't get to the point lol I appreciate the re assurance

Hi. I think every panic sufferer has at some point thought he-or-she was having a heart attack, because the heart rate seems to grow with the fear. It seems like if the fear continually grows, that the rate will grow as well. This is only true to a point. What you fear most cannot happen to you. I have never found any information saying that it is possible to have a heart attack as a direct result of panic. Google that and you will not find any news of that happening. A healthy heart is able to deal with whatever panic brings it (I have been through many awful heartrace experiences). The solution is to see if you can sit there as calmly as possible and watch what you are thinking without trying to change any of it. Try an experiment where you make it your goal just to get a good idea of what's going on in your mind during the process. See all of the little resistances, judgments, criticisms, and rejections of pain and reality. Just watching the mind like this makes you realize that you are not your mind and that you don't have to be subject to it. You step outside of the mind, and instead of taking on the role of the "thinker", we take on the role of the "watcher" who watches the thoughts instead of participating directly in their continuation. Something beautiful happens in that moment. You see the mind for what it is, a runaway machine, and you realize that it doesn't have to be you at all. You can watch your mind and thoughts as though they are objects outside of you, because in a real sense, they are.

Hope that helps,
Dan

thanks again everyone for hearing me out, it really does mean alot to have someone to listen to me and relate to. as I was browsing through threads yesterday it made me feel at ease to see such a helpful community reaching out to one another since it's so hard for everyone these days to cope with alot of major issues, mental or physical.