The Fear and Loneliness

It seems like no matter how many friends we have, we still feel very lonely. This feeling just can not stop from welling up inside. I do feel this way some times in between many ups and down of my ongoing process of healing and recovery.
Anyone experience the similar thing?
I've noticed that being a good friend for myself is a part of difficulty in the process as if my critical mind wont stop judging me. This is when CBT could not give me any help. I keep myself on the track of natural healing which mean i dont want to hang myself on medicines, unless...of course theres an exception ( example: to get myself in function when an extreme panic attack or agoraphobia unstopably reoccuring themselves ).
Facing fears is indeed not an easy thing to do for suffers like me, but I guess there are still things to discover which could help or empower me to not sinking in the dark ocean of desperation.
I would be very happy to hear and listen to some similar stories from other sufferes and how they deal with it. Some things maybe will enlighten me.

I understand that perfectly but i believe that every life is worth for the best. The term of the best cant be just generalized for each individu. But all i want to ask is; is there a way for people like you and me to love ourselves better equally with how we love our loved ones? Therefor maybe we can even enjoy being alone without being bogged down by the feeling of being 'abandoned' or misunderstood. Maybe all we need is just some new light of perceptions and how we make meanings to everything including about ourselves. Are we being true to ourselves? Are we a happy being inside? I still cant conclude the answers.

Yes i did the same and so far i got many kind of feedback which not always the positive ones. Mostly because of in the past i was known as a strong-independet person. Had my own art community and students and also built and ran my own bussiness house. And then 2 years ago many sudden and unexpected things happened one after another which caused me stuck and struggling with a lot of stress. 8 months ago was the climax and i found my self depressed and functional unable to take care of almost anything. 3 months ago i lost almost all my assets and the worst of all agoraphobia attacked me. It took a month for me to make my first move toward recovery by doing thing i had never done before; taking a solo flight to another island in my country. I done it and so glad i did. That experience motiveted and empowered me to heal and treat myself better with or without anyone else around no matter how scary sometimes it seems.
;-) I do believe we can live 'normaly' and i wish good luck for all of us. Thank you for sharing.