Heartbreak and panic attacks

Hey again all, so I posted a very long description of my situation earlier, but I guess the thing I really want to open up and ask help for is how to deal with panic attacks when dealing with heartbreak? I keep getting sick every time I try to eat. Everything tastes like cardboard, and I can kid myself into eating a very small amount before I suddenly feel like bursting into tears wherever I am, and then this triggers a dousing in overheated sweat, shakiness, and nausea. I keep on feeling fine, and then I'll try to eat and suddenly all I can think about is my girlfriend, and it just rips me to shreds all over again. I wake up dry heaving every day. I just want to find a way to break the cycle. This disorder is the cause of our recent breakup, but she also says that she is proud that I am trying to handle everything now, and taking the steps to do so. She is encouraging me, but the thought of us being apart is killing me inside.

Here's a link on how to breathe properly to get through, or even stop or avoid an attack althogether...I hope this helps.

http://www.ehow.com/video_4405003_breathing-exercises-panic-attacks.html

Sorry I can't be of much help with the heartbreak...WRA is right, it just takes time...

Keep posting!  Talk to you soon:)

S.C.

p.s I responded to your other post as well.

 

Thank you guys all so much. I woke up the same today, kinda smacked out of sleep, but this time I was able to work hard on focusing just on my breathing, and to my surprise, I didn't have to run to the bathroom as per usual. The nausea is definitely still there, and I'm fighting with it now as I write this, but I've also bought a bunch of vitamins as of last night, in hopes that some natural health and mental boosters will help ease me through the next few weeks or months, or however long this takes to run its course this time around...I'm trying St. John's wort, for daytime to keep me out of the dark, and melatonin during the day to help me with sleep. Last night, I did see a difference as I was falling asleep, that I could "feel" myself panicking as I was falling asleep, but I didn't neccessarily "care" that I was doing it. Eventually, that with some slow breathing brought on a good night's sleep. (The first I've had in months, since this whole craziness got triggered) I am planning to see my physician in the next couple of weeks, when I can get an appointment, and I'm hoping to get myself referred to a therapist as soon as possible. I do not have insurance, but I am working on getting on a citywide health plan that will help me with the costs of this stuff. It's an investment, but if I want to be a man who can really give the love I want to give, and not steal away all the attention of my loved ones until they tire of me and cause these horrible episodes, I have to make some serious changes. This is going to become my second full time job, because the alternative is a life of complete loss and sadness. And I just can't do that anymore. Today is also five days clear of alcohol, which I am hoping will slowly help me get it together as well. I made myself go outside and walk around my new neighborhood for almost 6 hours yesterday, jst so I could keep myself out of the house, where I tend to freak out. I found myself very sinck in the morning before going, and then having a panic attack at the store while trying to buy some things for my new place, because it triggered memories of this woman and how much I miss her. But aside from that, it feels like things are slowly getting more under control. But this changes moment by moment. Ten minutes from now, I could also be bent over the toilet.

hello
I was once there and yes it wasn't easy at all. To me it felt like burried alive. Suffering spiritually, mentally and physically. Woke up feeling exhausted and all i wanted to do was do nothing. Vomitting, migrain, back pain and so on. The cure can not be forced but yes we can go through it in a less painful way. It needs time to let go and finally truly letting go; the memories, the wounds a.nd maybe...the person. Some times when we do let go, good things happen with or without certain person. I dont mean to sound heartless here, i'm just sharing the-hopefully-once-in-a-lifetime-burried alive-story.
Dont punish yourself or hang on to feeling guilty cause you might think that you and your conditions made she left.

Just a lil step and awareness to embrace your new chapter of life each day would create a whole new story.

Good luck and Peace be with you.