Hey Meshice,
I know how you feel. Personally, i have a deep and sincere dislike of crowds and any situation where i can't just get up and leave any time i feel like it. Indeed, its the lack of control in large crowds that gets me on edge. People alone can be smart, small groups of us can even be wise, but large groups of humans, inevitably, display a kind of idiotic behavior and randomness that baffles me to my core. For examples see riots, sports hooligans or the current situation in half the middle-eastern countries. Combine this with a strong dislike of obligatorily staying in one place (such as a restaurant or any kind of social gathering) for longer than an hour, and you could definitely call me a solitary man. I've been know to just get up and leave under social circumstances that would dictate you sit down and stay, and in large crowds i seem to manage keeping a rather wide personal space despite general overcrowding.
Because of this, i tend to avoid large groups of people. My family, friends and female acquaintances have noticed my rather "solitary" behavior as well, and some have cared to comment on it. I've been called antisocial, a loner, an agoraphobic, or just a ****. Personally, i don't care. I think everybody is meant to be different. Me, i don't trust large groups of people and dislike being confined. Thats just who i am. I am not afraid of these situations. I'm a big guy and i know how to take care of myself. I just dont like them. So you say you're not comfortable in a given situation? Thats absolutely fine. Do what i do, just get up calmly and leave. People may think you're strange or being a ****. But is there anything more strange than consciously choosing to stay in a situation in which you aren't comfortable?
The good news is, you are not alone. Many people dislike crowds. Just not everyone has the guts to get out and find a place for themselves where they feel comfortable.
Sincerely, Max
Post Edited By Moderator (Scaredy Cat) : 10/13/2012 7:33:17 AM (GMT-6)