Hi, just wanted to say a few things..
Therapy-you said you found someone you like, I say go with it. I used to think therapists were weird and well, just plain ol weird. That was until it was strongly suggested I had PTSD and my doc ordered me to go "check it out with the shrink". I came to have PTSD by a rather unusual way-the after effects of dealing with people and circumstances related to my deployment. I thought it was all my fault and what everyone said about me was true- I couldn't do anything right and I was a total screwup. I've been told that all my life, but it really built up and got to me a few years ago. After being on a few drugs and several sessions with my counselor, it dawned on me that I wasn't the one with feelings of inadequacy of my supervisory skills. Unfortunately, during this time I was also sick. Lupus allows depression to come in and wreak havoc on a body. As if I didn't have enough to deal with. Long story short, I took myself off the drugs but continued the sessions until both my counselor and shrink told me I didn't really need to see them unless I felt the need to. The therapy help me sort things out, how I was feeling- the thoughts of worthlessness, I didn't need to be here etc. I now understand was just some notion in my head telling me this; it isn't how I actually am. I still have a long way to go to really feel like I am worthy, but I do know those embiciles that talked down to me may be the ones that actually need the therapy.
Now about the drugs-I was waaaayyy leery of them. After much online researching, I took the first one and after a week, yup there was a difference but had to change due to side effects issues. The second one, the same thing happened and I took things into my own hands and decided to not be on anything. I probably could use something for my anxiety but I do take natural stuff-adrenal complex and a few other things. Everyone is different and I highly stress you keep going to your counselor and it may take a few trial and errors on the drugs, but do not give up on yourself. Apparently you are pretty strong if you can continue functioning and still have your attacks. I say that because I know of "strong" people that have froze when they had to make several decisions at once.
Having anxiety makes things tough but learning how to manage even a small portion of it can be so empowering. You can do it. Good luck!!!