need someone who gets it

i have been experiencing this non stop for 2 months it is horrible i know exacly how you feel i am in the process of getting help with it i hope you feel better soon. Remember your partner is probably suffering just as much as you. I know because i have the most wonderful partner in the world and even this has made her crack a few times and it is not like her at all...

This horrible illness makes me feel like i am tipsey all day long for the past 2 months i want to take a hold and do something about it we can do it i have an appointment tomorrow night with my GP the 8th visit of the last 2 months and the last!!

Be strong take care...

haha i have been telling my partner for the last 2 months all i want to feel is normal lol so much i am sick of hearing it myself i am really new to this as before this last 2-3 months i really have been blessed with great physical and mental health for 26 years. and i really feel for people that have had this for a long period of time. I lost my dad to a very unexpected suicide a year ago and i realise the importance of mental health.
Allthough the doctors are convinced this has got something to do with the way i am feeling i keep telling them i know my body and their is something not right but again this is a symptom of anxiety i think. it is a viscious cycle and im finding it hard to step out of it due to the many symptoms i can feel.

I hope you get some relief from your therapy i know exacly how hard this is i look forward to possibly starting therapy soon we will see how i go pleading my case to the GP tomorrow i really want to see a ENT just to be safe.

almost every day is a day like this for me. leaving the house is difficult, but i'm trying to finish school and i also work. if it weren't for clonazepam, wouldn't be able to. my boyfriend is great but he never seems to understand. i too get nauseous with my anxiety and he gets upset if i don't want to eat dinner. i also suffer from GERD which doesn't help that cause at all. i'm always scared that i'm going to throw up in public because of the nausea and sometimes it really feels like i'm just going to drop dead. i'm sorry you are dealing with this too. i feel guilty because sometimes i wish he would have an anxiety attack just so he could understand why i can't eat right now, or why i need to pace, or why i need some space. the spacey feeling is awful too. it almost feels like an out of body experience.

Hello,

Anxiety is not easy to deal with and often times it's really hard to explain to people who have never had it. Some people can't understand why I have anxiety, I am a fairly go-lucky type personality and often times I find myself without significant explanation whenever a family member or friend ask "why are you so stressed?" I want to tell them, "How do I know?? If I knew why I was so stressed I think I'd have an easier time dealing with it!!". But it truly is hard to speak with those that don't understand what you are going through. Even here where I am certain each one of us have been through the mental anguish of a panic attack I find it hard to believe (whenever I am having an attack) anyone else is going though what I am. For a long time before I began my research I truly did think this is something that only I was dealing with. Until I found this forum (via the ol' "Why is this symptom happening?" Google search) and began reading what could be better said as my own words written by a stranger. I completely understand what it's like to feel like no one else can understand what is going on, I've done so quite a bit. I even feel anxious about what my primary care physician and therapist think of me and my condition!

Anyway, this place is a plethora of information and great motivation!

-Rxclusion

CBT can take up to 10-12 sessions for improvement to be noted. It looks like you are getting close to that...so hang in there!

With my treatment, I found that the healing started very slowly, and towards the end of my session time. My therapist was telling me that we would be concluding soon and I was like 'What'?!? I did not think that I was ready.

However, the benenfits did start to happen around that time, and had a snowball effect. (kept rolling faster and getting bigger all the time!)

After I had ended my sessions, I had a traumatic issue in my marriage, and ended up going back to marriage and individual therapy...so long story short...I had more CBT to do damage control for the new situation that caused a major setback in my healing (trust issues can do that)...

...but I think that if that relationship trauma hadn't occured (horrible timing) I would have been allright with the 1 session of CBT.

So, I am betting that you are going to do just fine between your Rx and finishing up your sessions! Hang in there and keep posting with us.:)

S.C.

CBT in nutshell involves working on the negative thoughts that feed into our anixety.

In essence, if our negative thoughts brought on the anxiety (often we are not even aware of them!) then countering these with postive ones will lessen it.

It involves 'catching' these thoughts, and anlayzing them...testing them so to speak to see if they are true.

This involves using worksheets to write down the anxious thoughts, then working through, using logic to disprove many of our fears.  (talk therapy with your therapist, and homework is also involved.)

This gives us power over our thinking, which helps us manage our anxiety!

It is really effective...though it takes time and effort.

Totally worth it IMO.:)

Hope this helps explain things a little more,

S.C.

It the collective thoughts during the day and invade the subconscious...tips the scale, and attacks us at our most vulernable, during sleep.;(

Manage the anxiety during the day...and the nocturnal attacks will lessen!  Nocturnal anxiety is often the last hurdle so to speak...it takes time, but can improve.

I have gone through it, so I know how you feel...there is hope! I sleep very well these days!

S.C.

Hi Folks its Larry, I am on the far side of anxity but still ocasionaly have a bad day, all of you will get here don't worry, just want to add a few things to what some of you have said.
You are right, your husband/wife does not understand, neither does Mother or Dad unless they have took a ride on this wild horse called anaxity. My wife lost her Father 6 weeks after we married she litterly tried to crawl in the grave with him, I never felt that strong about anyone wish i could, that was when I was 24 fast forward and you have a 48 year old arrogant dic- named Larry that thought she was just not a strong person, weak minded, no real internal strength, ect. more dumb crap than I want to admit to.
Then one evening after a nice Chinese meal and some beer I sat down to watch some TV, when I started to drop my weight I thought I was falling through my a-- into eternity, it seemed like my heart stoped, oh hell I am dying God help me. My heart seemed to jump into a dead run pulse was 140 and I couldnt breath, week legs, profuse sweat, my spirit seemed to want to float away, help me I want to go back to a few seconds ago before this happened! Well welcome to your first anxity attack Larry do you still feel superior to all those weak minded people. Like a lot of people I had thought about death but really I never thought I would, how can anyone be as stupid as I was. What I expierenced was the first real encounter with my own mortality, yes the Angle of death knocked on my door and when I oppened it She grabed me and gave me the biggest, wetest, french kiss I ever had. Bam my mortality hit me like a semi truck! I was ruched to ER like many of you were because we all thought "this is it baby" was sent home later with the egg of humility from head to toe. Yea, my fear was really special! What a jerk I was, but you know what folkes all of a sudden I understood what an anaxity attack was, without the expierance I would still be an unfeeling jerk. I lived with my xanax in my shirt pocket for years it was the only thing that would stop the attack in its tracks, but too much and my day was over. What I really want all of you to take to your heart is you all will get better, therapy will help, meds, will help, Faith will help but TIME is the real miracle, God Bless You All and He has because You all have each other!
Larry (former jerK)