Hi! I used to post on here regularly and stopped after I felt I "overcame my anxiety" and then only posted occasionally. Well tonight I am here because I have come to a realization about my anxiety. I have gotten past the very worst part of my anxiety for sure, but there is always a little bit that lingers with me.
From the day I was born I was always petite and skinny. I started noticing that I was gaining weight around 19 years old(exactly when my anxiety first started). I had such a problem with agoraphobia, anxiety, panic attacks, etc. that I didn't pay much attention and figured it was just the regular "freshman fifteen". After about a year and conquered the anxiety FOR THE MOST PART. I got engaged, married, had a baby and all that good stuff after I got better. However, throughout the passed two years I have managed to gain ALOT of weight. I graduated high school at 120, got married at 150, pregnant at 180 and gave birth at 235! I am now 210 and CANNOT get it off. I think I know the reason now. Everytime I feel even a little bit of anxiety or stress or any sort of discomfort I start eating(which is almost 24 hours a day). So although my anxiety is better I'm keeping the anxiety from starting up by eating. This is taking a huge toll on my health and I don't want my beautiful baby boy to grow up with a fat mom and bad eating habits of his own.
That's basically my background on where I am now, and I am curious if anyone else has gone through this? I have gained almost 100 pounds in 3 years. Please I am begging for help for ways that may help overcome this. I am not looking to be skinny or look like a model, I just want to be healthy and set an example for my family. I am quite aware of HOW to eat healthy and live a healthy life style, but I just have compulsions that I feel I have no control over and eat, eat, eat! I may even have a food addiction or eating disorder. I just hope I can find someone who has experienced this and maybe give me some insight/hope for overcoming this.