HORRIBLE couple of days

I've had a horrible past couple of days! Didn't sleep a wink last night! Not one bit. I have an appt. for a ct scan on Wed. for what the doctor believes are lipomas in my abdomen. Which that's what we all want it to be. So that is stressing me WAY out. Well I've had a sore/tender rib in one spot probably for a few months if not a little longer, at about the time I noticed the lumps in my abdomen I think I noticed this. It's not constant just I will notice it sometimes, well the dr was in such a hurry Thursday to get me out of there I didn't get to mention having it looked it. So that was playing with my head yesterday BAD! I was thinking the worst. I have something really wrong that probably can't be treated in my rib!

So no sleep major panic attacks off and on ALL night long.....As soon as my fiancé got home from work I went to urgent care told them I am crazy and the whole story and they gave me a chest X-ray. Nothing showed up that they could see on my lungs bones, nothing! So the dr only gave me one to calm my anxiety because I have a ct scan schedule for wed. So this is suppose to be good news! well it is,..but then I ask well what could it be??? He says well if you or or dr are still concerned you can have a bone scan if you think that would help ease your anxiety too. well What The HECK! Now he has me freaking out all over again! I don't understand what is wrong with me...why is my rib sore for no apparent reason?? I should probably take the news as good and move on right? Well NOT me I can't stop having feelings. I prayed so hard in the room that I was fine.

 

Im so worried about Wed. appt. I have a family that needs me and  I can't escape this anxiety this time, not even for a little bit. I don't want to die. I want to be healthy and happy.

 

Am I crazy to think I need a bone scan? He gave me no other information as to if there is something else it could be???

 

Please help!

I hope that you have a better night tonight Tara!

There is nothing worse than spending a sleepless night in panic.

When I am worrying about something constantly...especially like an appointment coming up, I will repeat this mantra over and over:

"It is not time to worry about that now."

You can't change the outcome of Wednedays appointment by fretting about it. Most likely, everything is going to be fine with you...but you will be worn out if you go on like this.;(

So give yourself a set amount of time each day, say 5 minutes, to think about this. After that time, you need to distract your mind from the worry and repeat the mantra when it tries to circle back to it.

You may also want to come up with another saying that will give you comfort. Maybe something like:

'I am well and healthy, and will not let anxiety tell me otherwise.'

The words we tell ourselves have power...so repeat this, even if you don't fully believe it at first...it will start to eventually sink in!

Know that we are cheering you on as you go through this rough time. We have been there and understand. You are going to be fine.

Rest well and talk to you soon.

S.C.

It can be hard to tell, because sometimes we do get sick. However, if you were to have something, it will pass, or you will get other symptoms that are definitive, like a fever, ect.

If you are not feeling better in a couple of days, then a call to your doctor would be a good idea.

I am sure that if you are sick, it is just a matter of a virus, or something you ate that didn't agree with you, and it will pass soon.

In the meantime, try doing the relaxation and breathing exercises in our Resource Guide (or your own favorites) and see if that brings relief.

That is often the best way to determine if it is anxiety or not...do your coping skills help? If so, then you can probably blame anxiety...if not, then perhaps you have caught little bug.

Get some rest and let us know how you are doing soon.:)

S.C.