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Posted 4/9/2013 3:48 AM (GMT 0)
Hello, so lately I've had some new scary feelings of anxiety. If anyone can relate or help please do! It all started with panic attacks a few weeks ago. Those were manageable. Now it's turned into a more internal "mental" anxiety in my head. Today I started feeling real again and was able to interact an perform daily activities. Then I starte questioning everything. I analyze if what I just said or did was even me.. Or a ghost.. Or if it even happened at all. I think it may be depersonalization? I feel like I'm so stuck in my head! I act like myself on the outside but on the inside I feel like I am lost and have no idea what is going on. I then question my reality or sanity. It's really every second of every day and ruining my life!
Posted 4/9/2013 4:40 AM (GMT 0)
Soccer13109,

I too deal with this very problem! It's horrible questioning your every move, thought or action. Sometimes I'll be in the shower and feel weird and question if I'm really showering..then I think "how weird am I questioning my existence?" Then anxiety swirls because I worry I'm losing my mind. It happens with any task for me..constantly questioning everything.

Do you currently take any medication for your anxiety? Or have you thought of going to therapy? I see a CBT therapist once a week currently and I've brought this fear up to her & she said it's definitely anxiety related & I'm not losing my mind :-) Our anxious minds are always over thinking & searching for something to worry about!

One thing that helps me is saying to myself "of course your really ____, it's just anxiety making you feel this way and your going to be fine!" I push thru whatever I'm doing even if it feels impossible to prove to myself I can and that I'm fine & it was in fact anxiety. I may question the realness five minutes later LOL but I usually can find humor in it.

It's just an anxiety quirk and once you start lessening your anxiety levels & accept this as a symptom of anxiety it will be less bothersome.
Posted 4/9/2013 1:43 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you! I thought I was the only one with this. It almost seems like an obsession lately. I went about my day yesterday without breaking down from it but sometimes I get so scared because I get so convinced maybe I am in another world or nothing I did even happened that then I start to feel super withdrawn and unreal fully. It's so scary. I wake up in the morning and the first thing I ask myself is how I'm feeling. It's like my brain is almost wanting that feeling back. I'm not on any meds right now. I'm in my third trimester pregnant so I was thinking maybe hormones are adding to my problem, making it worse. I'm seeing a psychiatrist on Friday and hopefully they can work something out with my doctor. I just feel so weak for having to take meds :( and I feel so guilty and sad because my boyfriend says we are pretty much at a standstill in our relationship until I overcome this. I feel so much pressure to get better fast, and before the baby comes. When I feel normal sometimes again, I question myself! Then starts the roller coaster cycle again. All I look forward to is sleep to escape this and I have a fear of doing any small task in case I don't feel like myself doing it.
Posted 4/9/2013 2:09 PM (GMT 0)
Soccer
Please take the time to read as many of the other post as you feel like getting to. You will find out
that where our PAD is concerned you are in a large group of people who almost always have these
feelings at some time. Some are like you, some even more so, but the main thing to remember is you
are not alone, Do this for your self, read, and possibly make comments, you will feel better.

Larry ***
Posted 4/9/2013 3:00 PM (GMT 0)
It's as if I wrote your threads. It's EXACTLY how I feel & the same worries. I don't take medication either for my anxiety so I know it's not some sort of side effect. I'm glad your seeing a psychiatrist Friday! :-) It helps just to talk to someone who listens without judgment and that understands anxiety. My husband doesn't get it either & sometimes says hurtful things which make me upset but I've come to accept that unless you've experienced anxiety, you really have no clue or understanding what it's like!

I do know though many women (myself included) have worse anxiety around their menstrual cycle most likely due to hormones and being pregnant your hormones are all mixed up! :-) I'm starting to think my anxiety has a lot to do with hormones because of my Mirena IUD which I posted about recently. I'm having it taken out Friday :/

Just know you are not alone with this. Posting and reading threads on here is amazingly comforting for me and there are tons of wonderful people. Try accepting your anxiety instead of pushing it away. Sounds silly but the more we push it away the harder it fights back. When we accept it & deal with it via therapy, medication, self help.....whatever approach, it lessens. Best of luck to you and keep us updated. :-)
Posted 4/9/2013 3:07 PM (GMT 0)
Ohh, about asking yourself in the morning "how am I feeling?" That's me 100% too lol but instead say "I feel good today and I'm not letting this anxiety run my day. I'm in charge!" And every time anxiety rears it's nasty head just tell yourself "it's anxiety and I'm not letting it bother me!!" I have to do this several times a day right now but it's helpful knowing its just ANXIETY. It cannot & will not hurt us. Feeling spaced out and robot like is scary...but harmless.
Posted 4/11/2013 9:07 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Soccer

Firstly, yes that line of questioning happens to me to. A whole bunch of existential questions! So you are definitely not alone.

Another thing caught my attention in your post. about feeling pressure to get better. I think that is the worst thing you can do to yourself. The more pressure you put on yourself to get better, the harder it will be for you. The first truly helpful book that I read after getting hit by anxiety was a book by a former anxiety sufferer titled "AT LAST A LIFE" by Paul David. In that book, Paul kept on stressing to not try to get better. To just do things as you would, with anxiety or not. I truly believe that.

You don't need the additional pressure to get better :)
Posted 6/17/2013 9:21 AM (GMT 0)
Hey I am also fighting this mental anxiety from past three months. My anxiety started five months ago with physical symptoms then moved to this mental anxiety, I also gets these irritating thoughts throughout the day with my every move and action, like how I am communicating with others, how I am thinking, how I am doing things I am suppose to do etc. These kind of questions are endless. I am also worried that thinking these kind of question will drive me to insanity or I will develop any other mental illness, just dont know how to come out of this. By the way irrespective of these thoughts I am communicating effectively with people and doing every task. Just want help to overcome these thoughts and I will overcome my anxiety.
Posted 6/17/2013 1:25 PM (GMT 0)
Hey there Soccer

Yup, this is one of the most confounding symptoms of anxiety. It creates self-doubt, questions, and concerns about what's going on with yourself. What you gotta realize is this is just anxiety that causes this. The questioning and the analysis is all anxiety too! But don't fight it. Yes, you feel kind of weird about it but accept it as a stage that you're going through right now. Read up as you can on anxiety & panic and educate yourself about how you can get some tools to manage the symptoms. It's going to take some time to focus on yourself and learn what you can about it, and then one day...day after day its going to get better.

Stay part of this forum, you are going to learn some interesting things about yourself & others! It sounds like you're taking the first steps by reaching out - congratulations & welcome!

Thanks for sharing & hope you are feeling better soon.

Joshua
Posted 6/17/2013 3:46 PM (GMT 0)
csvivek1984

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Posted 6/19/2013 11:20 AM (GMT 0)
Hey soccer what measures or treatment you are taking to fight these kind of thoughts
Posted 6/19/2013 3:59 PM (GMT 0)
Soccer You must remember that in your condition your hormones are playing hell with your rational mind.
You must take care of you, do something to distract the self questioning, you are a Creation of God and
you are bringing forth a new source of Love in your life, so much good going on, just make yourself do what
you know is right and good for you. If you do everything that is good for the baby you will be taking excellent
car of yourself, do this for You and the Baby don't worry about other adults they will figure out for themselves what is right, "Live in the Reality of Now". Peace to You and Baby!

Larry ***
Posted 6/19/2013 5:11 PM (GMT 0)
Hi csvivek and welcome!

I am sorry that you are having anxiety issues lately. It is great that you are reaching out here with us however!

You will find much understanding and support here.:)

Have you consulted with your doctor yet about how you are feeling? This is a first important step, in order to get a proper assesment and to discuss treatment options.

Medication and/or therapy are two ways to effectively treat anxiety and its mental and physical issues. Therapy worked wonders for me and my anxiety/panic problems. I can't recommend this enough. Make an appoitment as soon as possible so that you can get on your way to feeling better.

In the meantime, you can check out our Resources on our main page here. It if full of great self help ideas that you can start with today!:)

Keep posting with us as well. Start a new topic thread for yourself if you feel comfortable doing so, so everyone can recognize you as a new member and welcome you.:)

Talk to you soon,

Scaredy Cat
Posted 6/19/2013 11:09 PM (GMT 0)
“The best remedy against anxiety is to cast our burden upon God, believing His divine will to calm our spirit.” – T.B. Joshua
Posted 6/22/2013 7:16 AM (GMT 0)
Soccer since what time you are getting these thoughts
Posted 6/22/2013 11:07 PM (GMT 0)
Soccer I can relate so much to everything you said. Life just makes us anxious sometimes! There is so much support on here, it has helped me over many rough spots. I just wanted to say that I
hope you know people here care and they listen and help. You will find much needed TLC here.(I did and do)
Carol
Posted 6/29/2013 1:13 AM (GMT 0)
so i have had anxiety for a few months now and i can say at first it was hard to deal with because i didn't know what was up with me. now i have done some research on it it seems easier to cope with, everyday i still struggle with it but i just get on with it. intrusive thinking is the worse thing for me about anxiety i constantly have thoughts that i am going to become insane. my cousin is psychotic and this doesn't help with my anxiety because i am always saying to myself 'what if i become like him' and he says some really random things like he thinks people are planning against him, the sky engineer has bugged his sky box etc. so when i am at home i think to myself what if i started to believe that my sky box was bugged or that my loved ones started plotting against me. i know deep down that these thoughts are irrational but because i think like this always puts that doubt in my mind. can anyone relate to my intrusive thinking and is all this just anxiety or can it be early signs of psycosis/schizophrenia???
Posted 6/29/2013 1:32 AM (GMT 0)
Nope you are not alone we must be twins no fun at all&can be real scary&I wonder how did I become a pick for this illness I rather have something else&in return I want my mind back.
Posted 1/3/2014 9:21 PM (GMT 0)

Hi Zahzzie...I moved your post to its own new thread...please look for it with your name in the title. ;)

Scaredy Cat

Post Edited By Moderator (Scaredy Cat) : 1/3/2014 7:11:00 PM (GMT-7)

Posted 12/9/2015 4:50 AM (GMT 0)
I have spent most of my life in my head. I can remember being very young and watching my thoughts. I've always been very curious about them. Somewhere along the way, something happend though, and I started to identify with them. At one point I believed they were me, and there was no question about that until I read this simple line from a book. "You are not your thoughts."

Your thoughts babble, but they are not you..... They are a part of the system, but they are NOT YOU.

As a chronic watcher of my mind.... I, like many of you have probably noticed that you will think almost nonsensicle things, and that you have very little, if any control over the content.

Your mind tells stories... It's trying it's best to give you a narrative that is helpful... That's what it does. You can actually not listen to the narrative...........

Checking in with your body will get you out of your mind.. Watch a spot on your body..... maybe the bottom of your feet for instance...... If you watch long enough... your anxiety starts to melt, and if you are very focused, you will feel rather good! You are tapping into your parasympathetic nervous system.....The opposite of the anxiety inducing sympathetic nervous system.

Anyways... I love you all, I've been there for many years, and still do visit quite often. But.... You can get out.... If you really really really really want to.... train yourself to come into the present and to bring your attention away from your thoughts.

Salaam,

-Cody
Posted 12/9/2015 6:18 PM (GMT 0)
Hello Sitting Cody and welcome!

Thanks for your input and sharing in the support.:)

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Talk soon,

Scaredy Cat

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