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Posted 7/12/2013 6:25 AM (GMT 0)
I'm all about posting this week I guess, sorry!!!!

I don't even know how to explain how I feel!!!! I'm assuming many of u have felt that way!!
Tonight has been the worst I have felt since I have been diagnosed. I'm really feeling like most of this is due to my monthly cycle; since I haven't felt this horrible for such a long time! Even as I type this I am getting extremely nauseous and my body is getting hot and feels like certain parts of it are being burned. Whew this I a lot!!!

Rationally I know this is the anxiety. But the anxiety is making me second guess that it is something more serious. Well obviously because that is what anxiety does!!! But there is a part of me that thinks do I ignore all my symptoms and chalk them up to anxiety?? What if something really is wrong and I just ignore it??? (This is prolly anxiety too???)

*ok example of what just happened. Like I said before I am nauseous and burning sensation through out my upper body. It ceased as I was typing this. I needed to get a different nipple for my daughters bottle, I had the wrong size. I get up with her and the bottle, walk to the kitchen, get a new nipple sit back down. In that short amount of time the burning started up again but seems increased.

Is that "normal" that walking will aggravate ur anxiety??? It is almost gone again now. My mind has me repeating nothing is wrong but part of it wants me to check my blood pressure, check my pulse, (ooh here the burning starts again), email my doc. *sigh* I hate this!!! A lot!!i still have my. Xanax, but haven't had a chance to take it supervised, so I don't know how I will respond. That scares me. So I won't take it since I have to work in the morning. Ugh, here's another wave of the burning. This is horrible :'(
I know I'm rambling and I apologize!!! I'm exhausted, in pain, full of anxiety and scared due to it.No one should have to live like this!!! Ever!!!
Posted 7/12/2013 6:36 AM (GMT 0)
You are going to be okay JJ.

Take some deep breaths, repeat to yourself:

"I am okay, it is only anxiety making me feel this way."

None of my panic attacks were ever the same experience twice! That is part of what makes this so hard. There is always the thought of...'this time it is different...this is it! There is really something wrong this time.'

There isn't...just anxiety being a trickster.

Breathe deep, think postive and get some sleep if you can.

Let us know how you are doing soon.

S.C.
Posted 7/12/2013 6:41 AM (GMT 0)
Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. Im not sure im qualified to advise but can only say you are not alone. Anxiety is a particularly hard condition to manage for one others don't always know you are suffering and therefore don't cut you any slack and its so unpredictable
Just because today is a bad one it doesn't follow that tomorrow will be the same. Take care hun and keep posting I find that really helps
Posted 7/12/2013 9:33 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks girls!!! It is so hard!!!! U think u have it managed and then it throws this wicked curve ball at u and u have no idea what just happened!!!

I always said hyperemesis Gravidarum was the hardest thing I ever had to deal with in my life. I can easily say I would rather be pregnant and have HG five times over instead of this darn anxiety!!!
HG is somewhat predictable, u know what to expect, it a way of life. Anxiety, is now the hardest and worst thing I have had to deal with. It is unpredictable, it is relentless, it doesn't care, it just craps on u!!! I think for me the hardest part with this darn anxiety is the physical symptoms are the main problem which in turn cause my obsessive thoughts about my health. I don't start out thinking of my health then get the physical symptoms. It is so OVERWHELMING. And frustrating to not know why I am having the physical symptoms!! I keep going back to my thyroid, my hormones, something physically is not right in my body after having the baby that is causing this. :/

It will get better I know, I just don't know WHEN :(

Thanks for listening.
Posted 7/12/2013 3:53 PM (GMT 0)
It is really hard at times...but it gets better...keep on working on recovery and keep talking with us anytime for understanding and support.:)

S.C.
Posted 7/13/2013 6:16 AM (GMT 0)
Hugs to you, friend!

It IS very frustrating - especially the physical symptoms.

(This is selfish, but I wish I could show your post to my mom. lol She keeps telling me to quit making a big deal out of this. She had hyperemesis carrying my older brother, so this would make it clearer to her. I know that's mean and selfish to say. Sorry you went through that, btw. My mom looked like a skeleton in her pics from right after having my brother.)

I had a breakthrough today. I'm not saying that to rub it in, at ALL. But, last night, I went to bed weighing my options about having myself committed for a few weeks. Recovery looms on the horizon, friend. I'm not sure when we'll reach it - but I'm sure we will.

Hugs & love to you!
Posted 7/13/2013 8:01 AM (GMT 0)
BeRock thank u for ur encouraging words! They are much needed now. And I'm so happy. U had a good day!! Feel free to tell me all about ur good days!!!sharing successes is just as important as expressing ir less than positive experiences if not more!!!!!!!

Feel free to email me anytime! My email is on my profile page!
Posted 7/13/2013 5:35 PM (GMT 0)
Get all your wiggled out in writing here then do some vigorous exercise. It's just a little passing feeling and it goes away....you know that! ;-)

So stick to your guns when it pops back up every now and then, you will be fine. Even if you have an anxiety attack then so what - really how bad is it....not bad at all. Kind of like an adrenaline rush from vigorous exercise. So tune your body into what it feels like to be on an adrenaline rush during exercise. I swear to you an anxiety attack physically feels the same way just minus all re self doubt.

Hope you are feeling better soon!

Joshua
Posted 7/13/2013 6:07 PM (GMT 0)
JJonah

Positive affirmations work many times for me - I let the feeling of anxiety wash over me and than I repeat over and over in a calm voice, " I am OK", I am OK"

I say to myself what is the worst thing that could happen to me if I do have a panic attack........... "They can't take away my Birthday"  cool

I will always have some anxiety lying in wait for me but I cannot worry about when it is going to strike or I will never feel happiness.

Blessings,

Kitt

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