Not sure what to do. Feeling...Stuck and confused

A few years ago I was diagnosed with anxiety and I take a benzodiazepine medication as needed. Lately I feel like my anxiety is getting worse, I am irritable most of the time, I get easily frustrated/annoyed and I don't sleep. I have lost interest in pretty much everything and sometimes find myself just sitting in my room in silence not wanting to talk to or deal with anyone. There are days when I am so flustered that I feel like I could scream or start crying and I have no idea why this is happening to me. I usually don't talk about my feelings, mainly because I feel like my family and friends are uninterested and will get tired of listening... Like I am a burden, but I'm starting to wonder if this is something I should bring to someone's attention (doctor?) 

  I feel like I need to do something to get out of this rut and make myself feel better but I don't know where to turn or how to even begin to truly tell anyone how I feel. Sorry for this incoherent rant but I feel like I am falling apart and I am just really hoping that someone pit there can offer me some advice.

Thanks

Firstly, hugs to you friend - you've found a place where people understand. You can post here and people will not only care, but understand. Everyone deserves to voice their feelings.

I understand how you feel about talking to your family and friends. It can be difficult for someone to understand who has never had emotional or mental health issues. That doesn't mean that they don't CARE, it just means they often don't understand. I'm sure they care very much.

I'm not a doctor and I cannot diagnose you with anything, but purely from the perspective of someone who has suffered depression many times (and is at the moment) it sounds like you've got some depression going on, too. There's also a board here for depression - I post there, too.

I think that if you're questioning whether you need to talk to your doctor, then you probably do. Have you ever seen a psychiatrist or psychologist? Your primary care provider would probably be able to guide you in considering this.

There are a lot of resources available in the first post in this forum. Links to online CBT, breathing exercises and more that are really helpful. I encourage you to check them out.

Keep posting with us during your journey. The support here is amazing... this network is what is keeping my fragile little head stuck together right now. :)

Hugs!

Welcome!
We all know how you feel and will always be here for help. I would definitely take SCs words to heart because she really knows what she's talking about. I would also recommend maybe some relaxation techniques or even some exercise! Whether it's a run or a brisk walk.

Jocipher

Thank you to everyone who has replied thus far.
I know that ultimately I do need to eventually tell my doctor what I'm really feeling. I have gone a few times intending to, for lack of a better term, come clean, about my situation but then panic/anxiety sets in and when he starts asking things like "how are you doing, "how's your anxiety" or "is something bothering you" I just kind of unconsciously blurt out I'm fine and fake a smile. I like my Dr. very much and totally trust him, but for some reason I just can't bring myself to admit that I need help and I'm scared.

You wrote a beautiful opening and you are both intellegent and likable so if I were you I would sit down and write just how I feel and be as elliquent as possible, make an apointment with my doctor and ask him to read what you have written, it will cut directly to the point, if he asks you can tell him
the reason you wrote is all down is because you feel so sad and didnt want to miss anything. Peace

I know you will be ok!

Larry ***

WAID,

Maybe you could print out this list of anxiety symptoms and hightlight the ones that are bothering you the most.

http://www.anxietycentre.com/anxiety-symptoms.shtml

If you cant' find them on this list...here is a list of depression symptoms as well.

http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/detecting-depression

You could just hand this to your doctor, let him/her look it over, and allow them to make an assesment based on your list and any other questions that they may have for you.

This could take the pressure off of you to put all of your feeling into words.

Best wishes and keep posting.:)

S.C.