off balance feeling - worried about grandmother

my grandmother who lives 2 hours away from me (just moved here to Oklahoma 3 months ago) just had her second stroke in a month and this one is worse than the last.  she is 92 so she's old but she is sooo sweet and still so cognitive.  now she's not doing so well.

I was getting ready for bed and started feeling off balance then got panicky.  sometimes this happens from allergies but idk. anyone had this happen from anxiety and worry?  hate this feeling.  going to go see her Friday but i'm not sure if I will feel better going to see or not - will be hard to see her this way.  I hate that I can't just be stressed out and feel normal!!!! 

thank you SC. I will try. it's hard letting our loved ones go. I am just afraid she might never be herself again. we are close so it's very difficult.

it's also hard to imagine that might be us one day. that's the health anxiety kickin in. and reality maybe ha ugh

but larry i'm an overthinker!!! ha ok I will. I lost my dad when I was 32 and it was sooo difficult. I can't imagine losing one's mother - that will be a difficult one. yes grandmothers are the best!! :) I will try to just love and not think because that's when the panic sets in.

Hi Hazelnut

Part of the onset of my anxiety was worrying about my grandmother's condition and her impending death. I was shopping at the Hobby Lobby for some things for her new place, we had decided to move her closer to the rest of the family. I was overwhelmed, stopped breathing, was just thinking about her death and I had to sit down on the floor of Hobby Lobby because I was literally ready to faint.

I got out of there with what I wanted, and drove home. It wasn't until months later when my anxiety boiled into panic attacks that I looked back and understand it was part of the equation of anxiety in my life at the time.

I don't have much advice other than to accept death as a part of the circle of life. We have our own lives to live, as painful as it will be when our grandmothers pass away, I believe my grandmother has lived a full and fullfilled life. She is 89 this year.

Joshua