Hi S.C,
Firstly, thank you for your reply.
This a family member I have known for many years and this is absolutely
not the case. We always give gifts on each others birthsday - every year
and I have been given gifts every other year when doing well or otherwise
as I have known this person when we we were just making our lives to
doing well , in other words every which way. It has nothing to do with
giving a "handout". She gives gifts to each of us on our birthdays, in fact
one was just given to another member of my family recently.
Again, this is petty stuff and in the big picture I should focus on real concerns.
But I am very sensitive to be respected especially now that I am trying to
make things right. I do not want to get into again - because god knows I
have analyzed it ADNAUSEUM here - I am mostly responsible for being in
this desperate position, and each day I get older I feel worse.
Perhaps I'm paranoid, but what I think is going on is either a oversight, which
which as I right, I know is not true because the individual has always given
something for many years. And again, their financial position is no different.
Although it should not be this way, people will judge you based on where you are
at in life in terms of STATUS - so now I am not looked at the same way as when
I brought in a good living and hosted parties at my house, which this person
attended many times.
Yes, I know that sounds nuts, and perhaps I'm wrong , because I am in a stuation
that sets me up for feeling insecure, and axctually I am in a mood where I feel I
am fighting for my life - I can not really get into here S.C, that is why I email you
if you understand me.
Anways, what are we talking about here? A small gift, giftb certificate or somerthing?
Like I said, it is the principle of it , and I believe it shows the real character of the person.
They did not give me anything basically because I am not worth it their eyes.
As I said, they saw me struggle, grow frusterated, and suddenly I am not the "winner"
hosting the parties.
That is the only explanation I can come up with. If I told this to my wife she would say
I'm being too sensitive, manwhile it is true. People can be creeps.
So basically you can be doing ok, fall on harder times and you are not acknowledged
as much.
It does irk me, but there are so many real issues out there and I have to try and
get ahead.
We are going to meet with person and their family next week , and I feel like dissassociated myself with her, is that crazy? And no my bday was months ago so there is no chance of
it being given to me now.
I know that usually I do not think I would think about this twice , it is my situation that has me going over it.
Anyone have a opinion? Thanks