Why has this month been so awful to me?

I have had such a bad month, and overall summer. I can't believe I am posting again but I just don't know where else to turn, I hadn't posted for a while because I was feeling alright, and now I am always driving myself crazy. I can't stop searching health diseases. It has become an all day affair for so long now. Whenever I feel something's wrong, I google it and make myself so upset.

Tonight it was ovarian cancer once again. The symptoms of which I have everything. I have had this hip pain for a month and I feel like its cancer. What is wrong with me, I am driving myself insane!!!!

I ache all over and I am 20. I feel sick and nauseous so that makes me think the worse. It's like cancer is my biggest thing I think I have gone from having every type in the book and it's just eating me up inside and making myself crazy. Doesn't help that I cried all day on my birthday and fought. I just want to be symptom free but in my mind these symptoms are telling me I'm going to die!!! I feel so old and worn down when this is when my life should just be starting I have no one else but the support from you all which is so awesome and makes me feel better always. I just feel so awful and needed to write again, thank you

Hello. I am also 20 and I feel worn out constantly also, and also have some issues with health anxiety. I think sometimes this can occur with anxiety and/or other mental health conditions. It is frustrating to only be in your early twenties and to never have energy or feel exhausted all of the time, or to feel sick all of the time. I think the best thing you can do if you are afraid that you have a health problem is to talk to your doctor about it and get tested for it, even if it is just anxiety, it's better to know for sure, and then you might not worry as much. When I have been tested for something I think I have and I don't have it, I have felt relieved, and I think it's better than not knowing.

Thanks for the responses everyone!

I guess I just get so frustrated because the symptoms are there and it's so hard to convince myself that it is me manifesting the symptoms. My hip and back pain I am sure are from sitting weird or my mattress, but of course I google it along with any disease and it's a symptom. I wish google didn't exist in my world, any little thing now I search and I get myself all upset and irritate the people around me. I get upset stomachs everyday along with bad bowels and headaches I am just making myself sick and it is not good. Every symptom I blow out of the water.

And marie, as for your best friend she is a true inspiration. I couldn't imagine being in her shoes and having to deal with those struggles, she must be very strong.

i cant tell if i have anxiey from my health issues or health issues from anxiety :(