Will I Get Better?

I feel like I am up them I am down and down then up a lose to win cycle and for the last few days,I have been feeling uneasy and eery feelings and a new thing has came where I swear someone else in the room I've had feeling of quick shadow run by me before and doctors say that's normal. But this time this ain't normal and it feel like someone standing in the room for a long time and shadow move like coming at me,and today was a good day and I took a nap and woke up with a something was wrong type feeling and that's when who ever the heck that was came in the room and was here for a min.

I swear y'all I am not crazy but things over the years of seeing and having dreams have just about got me to a breaking point, but why is things trying to drive me crazy why oh why is things looking like they getting worse and I am fighting and fighting for better. But I just don't know how to get rid of the things that scare me and make me slip back into deep depression, like nights I can't breath and I promise feels like I stop breathing for a bit and fight to get air and breath and wake up with shakes nerves on 20. I just want to understand and at times I do feel like I am alone and why am I being beat up,was I put here just to live in hell could that be it and then I have to keep in mine what my grandmother said God isn't one to lie and he never said it would be easy but we are all call for something great well I am like Lord I've had enough hell where is my good now.

Dawn I'm an old man and I some times get that creepy feeling, turn on all the lights, get a butcher knife
go room to room and check each closet, keep your door locked, if tomorrow you are ok then you can call
it nerves and laugh it off, you need some Mace! Love

Larry ***

Well Dawn if you catch a good looking burglar you could use the mace to make him stay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Peace

Larry ***

Thanks alot Kitt.