Anxiety has sent me on a crazy path these past eight months. All starting from a workout. Then went to ER then to testing then to excessive worrying then to more tests and then to more worrying but it's now that I'm realizing that anxiety has nothing on me anymore. Anxiety made me waste eight months of my life filled with excessive worry and took away activities that I loved to do and made me isolate myself. After the cardiologist told me everything is normal in regards to my heart I was like( not directly) did I just waste al of this time worrying about
something that is not real? Yes it did unfortunately. And I hate that I did but I am to blame because my symptoms weren't real. They were physically real but nothing to be anxious about
. It's because I became so in tuned with my own body that the things I wouldn't normally feel I felt.
But what I had to grasp and what others need to grasp is that I am and was okay! That there is nothing wrong with my body. It very darn well feel like it based on all of the symptoms but In reality it's nothing to be scared of because of the hypersensitivity to our bodies. And the knowledge of so many diseases from looking on web MD etc only feeds our minds more ideas to freak us out and gives us more symptoms to look out for and will inevitably end up feeling because our mind creates it. Even from the slightest tremor or the smallest hint of pain if we focus on that or something new it will only feed to it and make it even more noticeable. Like how when someone you know gets a haircut and you never even noticed until he told you. Then it's very noticeable.
And we must put that behind us. Accept the symptoms and accept and BELIEVE out doctors when they tell us it's okay and then just let it go. When you do this I promise the symptoms will go away and you won't even notice it anymore. Happened to me a ton of times and I know all of you go through different scares with different symptoms and may think that this doesn't pertain to you because I worried about
my heart it doesn't matter if you are worried about
your heart or colon or cancer or whatever we are all branches of the same whole tree.
And most importantly we have only one life that we all must live to the fullest. Life is a gift. Don't let anxiety symptoms or just anxiety in general to bring you down! Your body and spirit must be free and you go to go and make the most of you life. Like Larry said in his story when he kneeled down by his bed and said to The Lord that from now on that he will live his life to the fullest despite what he may feel.( probably not exact sorry Larry)
Carpe Diem!! You have a life to live and anxiety isn't a part of it!
Don't let the mind break the spirit of your soul..
Hoped this helped a bit!
Jocipher
Post Edited (Jocipher) : 10/8/2013 5:58:42 PM (GMT-6)