Posted 10/12/2013 3:48 AM (GMT 0)
It makes me feel like I'm weird or anything. One co worker is asking me if I "go out with my boyfriend", he's an old man and I don't know if it's correct to ask a personal question like that but Ijust said: "no lol". and he said "I don't know if you have one, you are alwas alone, are you like this always?" like it's not normal or fine to be alone. I said: like that, how? and he said: lonely. being alone doesn't mean that I'm lonely or not always, I'm like other people, sometimes I feel good sometimes I feel lonely but being alone doesn't mean to be lonely. And I hate it people see it that way because they make me feel like they see me and they think like oh poor her she's alone. Like they feel sorry for me.
I would like to have a boyfriend but, I don't know I can't have one for some reason that's very difficult for me =/, but anyway it doesn't mean I'm lonely or that I FEEL alone. I don't have a boyfriend but I feel good. Why do they make me feel like I'm someone that makes people to feel sorry for me. It's not the first time sopmeone tells me this, some weeks ago, someone said: and do you have friends, I'm always see you alone, and he kind of laughed.
And I feel weird =( I dno't have to many friends and I've always liked being alone, I had a friend and we hung out and things but he moved and I'm not very sociable and don't feel comfortable with most of the people, but I do talk to my co workers and I spend time with them, sometimes even if I don't want to, but I do.
And why does it have to be this weird that people sees me alone and see it that way, like I'm lonely all the time. I feel weird :(