Alone And Anxious

Well, I am home alone for the night and going insane. I feel so scared and alone. I am getting so sick and tired of this . I have literally been crying and even threw up because I am so scared and have scared myself to death. I started googling things and now I just feel sick to my stomach, what is wrong with me, why can't I stop!!!!

I hate being home alone, I just hate not knowing someone is around. I just hate this. I just can't handle all this health anxiety and no matter what I do around this time at night it is the worse. I googled when I know I shouldn't have, I googled obesity and how it will kill you and all this stuff, not that I am huge, I carry it well, and this whole pcos thing has just taken my mind to crazy places, and I just feel absolutely out of my mind. I just wish I could be somewhere to take my mind off things and myself but no matter what I am stuck in this stupid body.

My anxiety is officially at it's worse tonight and I am just so sick of feeling like this, I don't know what to do, I have tried listening to music, watching tv, and it is just not helping. I have tried breathing exercises and everything. . I hate this, what is wrong with me these days!! Anyone else feel like this? What can I do to help myself, any ideas? I just can't take it anymore
I can't sleep because I have been up so upset.

I totally know how you're feeling right now. I work nights and am ALWAYS awake all night long, even when I'm off work. My anxiety hits its peak during the night, when the rest of the world is sleeping. All of my health anxiety slams into me and I often end up forcing myself to vomit because I feel like it will take it all away (or at least take away the nausea that comes with my panic attacks).

You're absolutely not alone. We are all thinking about you. When I get into the state you're in, nothing helps me either. Luckily I just got prescribed some Xanax, which has been a lifesaver these past few nights. Before I had it, though, I would take Valerian Root and Melatonin. If I did that before the attack started, it would sort of help to prevent it by making me groggy. I might still have an attack, but it would be a little shorter lived. If I was in the midst of an attack I would sometimes take two Benadryl or a dose of NyQuil. This would often overwhelm me with grogginess and force me to sleep. I also have a fear of medication, especially while having an attack, so it was not always easy to do.

I really hope you've come out of the attack and are getting some sleep! <3

Hope you are better today FL, next time try doing physical exercise, it takes a little more concentration to
work out, and there is your distraction, I do wish for your Peace!

Larry ***

:) :) :)

That all sounds great! Glad that you had a good holiday!

You sound the happiest I have ever heard, and I am doing a happy little jig here!

Keep up the good work...and print out this thread for future reference...to remind you how good things can be.;)

Hugs,

S.C.