Ms.Jessy,We are not tired of you and I am glad you come here and write down your feelings as well as you trust us to understand where you are coming from. (((((HUGS)))))
I had a bad breakdown in 2005 with a major depressive episode and severe anxiety. I cried for 3 months and did not think I would ever be OK again but here I am and yes I still have bumps in the road and mountains to climb. I frequently will feel anxious and sad in the mornings when I wake up and reality hits me............and then I cry. I let the tears out and from there I go and wash my face in nice cold water as I talk to myself with positive comments. "I have done this before, I can do it again", "I am OK" " Stay in the moment for that is truly the only time any of us have". Once I have completed my routine, I put on my "I can do this" armor and move on with my day.
I may have other moments during the day so starting my day over 2-3 times is my normal and I don't worry about it.
On a really bad day, I will call a good friend who I have an agreement with - she will tell me a joke as I love to laugh and once I find my sense of humor the day gets better.
I come here and help others as in doing that I am helping myself by keeping from worrying about me.
The best of luck with your appointment tomorrow and make a list of what you want to talk with your Dr. about.