Hate the feeling of losing control

Recently I have become overwhelmed with the fear if going crazy and ending up in a mental hospital; along with the thought of harming my kids this though scares the holy crap out of me! I can't seem to grasp how some one who loves their kids so much and would do anything for them could possibly have these type of feelings! I know it all stems from the anxiety and panic disorder and other stresses such as losing my job, in a very bad relationship ( which I'm to scared to leave because then I'll be home alone) dumb right? This whole disease is a pain in the butt. I have tried the medicine both natural and prescribed been to so many head doctors and nothing has worked not to mention that those head doctors are so expensive almost impossible to afford when one doesn't have a job and 2 kids . Thanks for listening to my rant

WOW what city are you in? There may be some good group therapy. Peace

Larry ***

Check out and see if there is a crisis line in your area. When you are having these feelings you can call them and they are wonderful at talking you through these problems. Especially when it comes to your children, don't take any chances with them -You should be able to just call your mental health association and get a number to call when you feel you really need too. Do you have a good friend who you can talk to when you have thoughts such as you describe in your post. What meds have you been on - have any worked at all for you, or did you not stay on them long enough - sometimes that's the problem. When you mention your children - I just feel you need some backup for yourself when these thoughts come over you. Talking to someone always helps and can give you a different perspective - I know it always worked for me.

Hope you get to feeling better -