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Posted 12/4/2013 12:03 PM (GMT 0)
I went back to the walk in clinic and had blood work done that came back all good. Doctor recommends taking Buspar for a few weeks to see how I do. I really want to beat this without medication.

I feel like I have accepted my anxiety and therefor I do not worry so much about the little feelings I get and I don't have panic feelings daily like I used to a few weeks ago.

Now I feel myself becoming more irritable and losing my cool much easier than I used to (its only happened twice). Its concerning me...

I also have recently had 3 occasions where I get depressed around the middle of the day. Yesterday I couldn't wait for my girlfriend to get home so I could hug her. I got really sad trying to think positive about some good times in our lives but it just made me sad as I felt like I would never be back there because of this. Our relationship is good but the depression makes me think we're not.

It seems like when I get past one symptom (light headed, tingly arm, short of breath) and I accept that its just anxiety, I get a new symptom. If I can just get past these depression periods I would be very close to feeling better! I'm worried that these symptoms point to some brain condition as opposed to some form of anxiety.

I do have an appointment with a therapist tomorrow which I'm looking forward to, in order to gain some direction in tackling this thing and get a second opinion on medication.

Any input is appreciated!

Thanks!

James
Posted 12/4/2013 12:17 PM (GMT 0)
hi james, i know what you mean about anxiety symptoms. i don't have physical symptoms, but sometimes? often? it feels like just when i get past one thing, another takes its place.

i am glad you shared here. i have started sharing every day, just to get the nutty thoughts out of my head.

thanks,
Posted 12/4/2013 1:13 PM (GMT 0)
Garman,

I can relate pretty well with the relationship aspect. I have OCD and while I don't get sad about my relationship, I get very doubtful. Like you, one second I can't wait to see my girlfriend or spend time with her and then all of the sudden the positive thoughts I have about our relationship turn into doubts, fears and anxieties.

A huge thing that you've done is realizing that it's the depression/anxiety talking. It's not you. Believe me, I know how annoying, frustrating and exhausting that it is to continuously listen to your head doubt and be pessimistic about very good situations, but that step you have already taken is a huge one. I think (and hope) that you'll find the thoughts will start to get quieter. For me, once I started to realize that the bad thoughts were the OCD talking, things started to turn around a bit. I wouldn't consider myself "there" yet, but certainly in a much better place than I was weeks ago. It does, can and will get better.

Trust yourself and your relationship and be confident in your feelings for her. Anxiety hates confidence so the more confident you are, the quieter it will get. Have you told your girlfriend about your anxiety/depression? I know it may be scary to do, but telling my girlfriend about my issues was probably the best thing I've done.

Good luck and be confident!
Posted 12/4/2013 3:31 PM (GMT 0)
Hi GM,

Great job on pro-actively handling your issues! You have not only seen a doctor and gotten this checked out from a medical perspective...but you also have an upcoming appointment with a therapist, which is great!

I can't tell you what a difference therapy made in my recovery. I really think that you are going to benefit from talking with someone, as you will learn lots of new tools to manage the anxiety.:)

Best wishes, and let us know how your appointment goes!

S.C.
Posted 12/4/2013 3:34 PM (GMT 0)
Here is a link about first appointments with a therapist/p-doc/counselor...it may give you some insight as to what to expect at yours.;)



https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=2287406

S.C.

Posted 12/4/2013 6:22 PM (GMT 0)
SC

Thanks for the good info on my appointment! I believe. I am seeing a counselor when I now realize I may need someone capable of prescribing medication but I will see how the first appt goes.

JK

You said it well, my good feelings turn to doubts about my relationship. I have lived with her for 3 years so she's well aware of this new anxiety pattern.

I find myself half way through the day now. It started off with a lot of anxiety that I was able to push back for the first time and tell myself how I have nothing to worry about, my symptoms are all in my head. As the 12:00 EST hour approached I found my reassuring thoughts less helpful and a slight depression has set in. My drive to keep working has diminished. I'm struggling to find a happy thought to focus on as everything I think should be positive is thought of in doubt when I get this way.

I need some coping tips for times like this... I feel like I have the rest of it a little better understood but these grey and gloomy episodes seem to be harder than the physical symptoms to ignore and look past.

Thanks for everyone's insight! I really like this place!

James
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