Posted 12/20/2013 11:29 PM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone , today I feel horrible , but its weird in my mind I feel ok , I wanna do stuff , I wanna live And enjoy life and go Christmas shopping , and etc , but my body says other wise , the brain zaps are coming and going and the headaches and head pain are coming and going , the tight band feeling is fading and the shooting pain in my FACe is coming and going , the chest pains comes and gives , shortness of breath , then I feel weak , I feel like I'm not on this earth but my body is here and I have to squeeze my eyes real tight and open them , I feel like imma pass out or faint , but I don't know from what , the pressure in my head cones and goes , stomach pains , ...feel like my body is fading away and my anxiety is going crazy , very anxious inside , can't calm down , I took half of 0.5 Ativan on wed night , made me feral worst , it did nothing , when I took it last year it would relax me and put me to sleep now nothing , my psychiatrist gave me Xanax but I'm scared to try , how long do you have to wait to take it , I took that half of Ativan on wed , my anxiety is out of control , I sometimes think if I would of tried meds a long time ago would I be going through this , my nerves are literally jumping through my body , I can feel them , I'm so scared ... My psychiatrist really wants me to try the Zoloft , it feels like I can't relax , I keep drinking chamomile tea , I'm a mess , I'm tired of going to Er and all those different doctors , my jAws are hurting , everything is just a mess , I keep crying , .... I'm not on any meds , had all the test , its a year and half and everything seems worst , my anxiety is through the roof , when does it end , if I don't take pills will I be like this forever , will I make it through , I feel like I'm waiting for my last day it's so scary , what is thus doing to my body will I break down ,,,,, I just want some peace ,,,, I can't get another test on my body , please I need done great advice , oh and yeah even though the headaches are not as bad as they was it still feels like it will explode , am I going crazy ... I go get a deep tissue Massage in the morning I hope that Helps ... Thanks guys ...