stressful day vent

I kept forgetting how to breathe today! I hate that. I'm telling myself it was just a stressful day that would have resulted in high anxiety for anyone, even without a disorder; I had to make two reports to DCFS (the most terrible part of my job), and I have an intern who started today so I felt a need to perform every task with perfection. Sleep would be a welcome relief - too bad my sleeping skills are out of practice.
I can do hard things. I'm fine, nothing to worry about. I can do hard things! (But I still really wish screaming was an option)

My whole family came for the holidays. The last of them flew out on Saturday, and I think I had a break down after having to be in complete control for 3 weeks. I spent most of the day yesterday on the couch because every time I moved my head it hurt so bad I threw up. I had to call-in sick this morning because I didn't trust myself to drive after being up all night being mad at myself for not being stronger, and my head is still spinning a little. I sent an email to my intern of things he could do, but it was only his 2nd day and I feel like I just threw him to the sharks, and my Monday kids hadn't even met him yet so I feel bad about throwing them off as well! I know everything is fine and life goes on for everyone even when I'm not doing my part, but I still feel like I failed. I will definitely be at work tomorrow.

Thanks for allowing me to vent. In the real world, I act a lot stronger and more stable than I really am.

This is the place to let it all out...be honest, even vulnerable. As well as we 'know' eachother...we are still anonymous!

I am glad that you allowed yourself a day to rest and recouperate.

You may have saved yourself more sick days in the long run, by letting yourself recover and gain some strength.

Good job on taking care of the most important thing...your health!

Hoping you feel better and have a good day tomorrow.:)

S.C.

I am sure that you personally had nothing to do with the intern's decision!

Many students starting out on career paths explore lots of different options before making a final decision.

I have a tendency to interalize a lot of things however, so I know what you must be feeling.

about your new prescription...do you feel that you need it? Do you think that you can gain enough benefit from it to make it worth adding a new Rx?

If you feel that you have a choice in whether you need to try this or not, then do your research on it, and carefully weigh your pros and cons before making the final decision.

Wishing you the best in all of this.;)

S.C.