Okay...I see. I am sorry that this has been rough.
Here is the link to our Resources. You can try some of the great self-help ideas for anxiety...as well as
Moodgym, a really good on-line therapy option for depressive feelings.
https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=104206
If you find you need further help, you can then consider consulting with your doctor about meds and/or a therapy referral.
...and keep talking with us for understanding and encouragement.:)
S.C.