Posted 1/12/2014 6:52 PM (GMT 0)
Ok so I took my first Zoloft ever the other night , 25mg at 10pm , woke up next morning feeling crazy and crying , with bad thoughts and increased anxiety , so I took it again last night at 10pm , woke up around 7am panicky , arms stiff and increased anxiety on the verge of a panic attack , I popped an 0.5 Ativan , my chest feels funny both sides , last nite it's like a bolt went through my chest , now I'm nervous and anxiety and on edge , I was doing better without the meds , and ever since Christmas Eve when I tired that 0.25 Xanax , I been having panic attacks which I never had the entire year and half of this just real high anxiety and a panic attack when this all first started , I'm done with Zoloft , I tired I don't like how it makes my heart feel , I fell worst and now I have to get this out my system so I can feel bad all over again , uhhhhhhhhhhh , don't know what else to do , I truly have tired meds they are just not for me , I know I only took them for two days but , I can't deal with it , my chest was hurting really bad , and I went to ER , had EKG and blood work , now I scared all over again , at least when I wasn't taking anything I could control it better , now I have to get myself to a place to stay calm , and after seven months of having a headache , the Ativan is bringing it back , it's a horrible cycle , die anxiety , die , don't it just ever say ok I'm done here and leave a persons body , my gf had anxiety really bad , she throw up everything she ate , heart Pelops , lost 50 pounds etc , she tired Zoloft and Xanax , made her feel worst so she stop , and then one day it just left her body , she woke up and didn't feel a thing , today she is doing very well , anxiety has never come back , that was like 5 years ago ,.... I just want it to go , I can't afford to be sick , I'm taking care of my son who was dx with leukemia , so I don't have room for this extra anxiety stuff , especially when pills are suppose to help me and it's not , the scariest thing is can someone die from this , this is a lot to go through , I mean I been checked out so so much its crazy , but I wonder all this anxiety and stress on my left side where my heart is , this is crazy and somedays like today I just can't deal with it , I want a normal life , normal , I miss me , my son is doing very well , things have been changing in my life for the good , so I just don't know anymore , why I can't get better , 24/7 chest pain day in and day out , what type of life can someone live like this , its just sad that we have to suffer , and like most illness , there is a cure and things that will help you , but with this its trail and error , its so sad I cry everyday , but try to be strong and keep my head up , just trusting that one day God will heal me , I don't know why this happen , but everything happens for a reason and God willing it gets better , I know God is a healer my son is living proof , I'm praying that I will be healed as well , I have so much stuff to do but can't because of this anxiety , I do the bare minamal , but it's still rough , I'm praying for a cure , that these weights are lifted and I can feel free again , meds I can't do , so all I have is faith and will do CBT , maybe I will try natural supplements , I just wanna wake up and feel like my chest can breath ......uhhhh its a vicious cycle , when will it end ...
Have a good day everyone , or at least try to ... God Bless you all