Nowhere to turn

thanks
just woke up and feel ill. it's hard to explain, even mundane things like getting s drink or watching tv are too hard as I feel so ill

I am so sorry...I hope that your med changes start to help soon.

I wish I had more advice, other than what we've already talked about.:(

Thoughts and prayers.

S.C.

Hi Craig,

I did some back reading on your post and wasn't sure I saw where, when and how this all started for you. I just know you are dealing with some weight loss issues and general feeling of blaaahh and being aware of every little sensation in your body.

Let me tell you something craig, when i got hit with my anxiety 3 plus years ago, I lost almost 20 lbs in a span of 3 months. I also felt dreadful, nauseated, disconnected, confused, depressed, muscle spasms, emotional roller coaster, couldn't sleep, no pep or motivation for anything, over thinking etc... u name it i got and I had the least supportive wife (we are separated now). but you know what? THINGS GOT BETTER. You will just have to ride this out craig and there wont be any silver bullets... Progress will come in bits and pieces. but it will come, you just have to be patient and have faith. I still get the sensations and symptoms, 3 plus yrs has passed. I still get hooked into the thinking loop... Though it is easier now to unhook myself.

I know how dreadful you feel craig, I've been there and so has many others in this forum. Please feel free to always communicate and at the same time know that this too shall pass. PEACE.

No one to talk to and people sick of hearing your stories craig? Tell me about it!! :) i have a big group of friends and wife when this all started now in that group i only communicate with 1 and i got no more wife. But u will find help from unlikely places. This forum has been cery helpful for me. For advise and connection.

As good ole larry said "he decided to only die once!". You've felt thia dread for i dont know how long. But u know what, u still and u still kicking. Maybe, just maybe its not as bad as what it seems. Peace :)

Ive been called pathetic, loser, a***ole, good for nothing, sympathy seeker etc.. And that was from my ex-wife. The question craig is? Are you going to let other people define you? Or are you going to be, first and foremost, responsible first to yourself before anybody else?

Absolutely...no one chooses to feel this way!

Still, there are ways to go about pro-actively getting to a better place physically and mentally.

This usually means getting the help of your doctor/mental health specialist...and/or working a full program on your own with self-help material.

I would still encourage you to get that second opinion from another doctor or specialist...

...and if all is found to be well physically, to then get going on and anxiety recovery program, either with a therapist, or in the form of a self-help program. (I can make recommendations if you need them)

All the best,

S.C.

Eesh! I am sorry to hear that.  A lot of people get that attitude if the doctor knows that one has anxiety.

...still, a doctor is not going to ignore outright signs of illness. De he do an examination? What did he say of your wasting concerns? Did he see anything alarming or off?

If not, then you may need to consider that you now have two doctors that are telling you to treat this as acute anxiety and its symptoms.

Your next step may need to be to consult with a psychiatrist. This is not only a mental health specialist, but a medical doctor!

He/she would not ignore your issues if they felt that you were not simply dealing with anxiety.

Try to get a referral...or simply find a way to pay for it out of pocket.

It may be worth it in the long run, so that you can get well.

S.C.

I don't mind paying for psychiatry but can't see how I could get out to see him
had a good day yesterday which is why wwent to friends
I.used to have a life

Hi Craig , I think you are my twin , right now I'm crying and just asking God to please take this away from me , I'm 35 yrs old female with a 13 yr old son who is going through leukemia , now Craig my anxiety hit aug of 2012 , been in and out of hospitals , specialist , and ER since then , I have extensive testing , stress test , cardiac cath , echo , hoilter monitor , MRI , mra , EEG , tons of bloodwork and a host of other stuff , while I refused to take meds it's been a vicious cycle , just the other night after a yeAr and half I tired to get Zoloft a try and it made me crazy and I feel like crap and my chest hurts , Craig you are not alone , we can talk anytime , may of 2013 my 13 year old was dx with leukemia , so my anxiety got worst , but I had to be strong as ever for my son , I had to stay at the hospital for months at a time and still deal with the anxiety , it was hell , I will tell you Craig a good friend of mine 5 years ago went through hell of anxiety , she through up everything she ate even water , she list 50 pounds you could see her bones , like us , she went to doctor after doctor , er after er , they found nothing , they gave her Zoloft and Xanax , she said it made her worst , so she stop , one day on its own it just went away , she said she woke up and didn't feel a thing , it was all gone and today she is doing wonderful , she calls me to encourage me because she knows what it is like , so have faith , trust me I know , it's hard , I'm dealing with it just like you , I just want my life back , not to feel like everyday will be my last day on earth , its awful , and I pray for your strength , I listen to Joel osteen yesterday on you tube , type in Joel Osteen , you can handle it .... Contact me anytime ...

You can maintain your weight and still experience muscle wasting. Detraining occurs when you lose “training-induced adaptations” because of inactivity. Detraining can lead to muscle loss or atrophy and a decrease in muscle strength within two to six weeks.

My best advice is to seek out second opinions from an Internal Medicine Physician - ask for what you need and that seems to be an in-depth medical screening exam.

One of the best decisions I ever made was to see a Psychiatrist as my PCP always handled my medications and mental health issues. In 2005 I had a major depressive episode and my PCP walked me over to see the Psychiatrist whom I still see on a regular basis.

She has a great nurse working with her and I can call the nurse just to let her know if I feel like I am in trouble. 

A combination of therapy and medications worked for me however I still have episodes where I can have a bad week or even month and I have to accept how I am feeling and accept that I must take the steps necessary to heal.

Keep talking with us and know we care.

Should a doctor be able to spot atrophy wasting?

it's just by noticing my.body
my left leg it's definitely getting worse but scales say weight on
can you lose muscle yet still put weight on.
I fear end is near. thinking of packing bag. not going to no hospital to die

You are not going mad...however, as I am not a medical professional, I can't give you much more help...but to tell you to keep working on your anxiety lowering treatment instructions from your doctor.

Feeling like we are going to die from our symptoms, is actually common. I felt the same way for a long time. I feared going to sleep at night, because I was pretty convinced that I would not wake up.

I know how hard this stage in your journey is. I had different specific concerns/symptoms...but the fear is the same.

I just encourage you to keep taking your meds, and using the coping skills that have been recommended to you.

I also still think that you could find help with a phychicatrist. Remember this is a medical doctor, who has specialized in mental health. (the best of both worlds for your concerns!) He/she could provide you with the answers that you need!

Look into it if it is at all possible.

S.C.