Posted 1/19/2014 10:29 PM (GMT 0)
In my situation, to the outside world I put on a good front that I "appeared" to function. But that was also because I made a lot of excuses to avoid doing things, because I was overwhelmed by social situations and health anxiety and tremendous fear of panic attacks.
I found myself obsessing about various things in an unhealthy way.
The medications my doctors tried me on (and I went to a few psychiatrists, mind you), not only did not work, but the side effects were dreadful. Some examples were that I felt like my heart was racing, I had night sweats, the shakes, double vision, I couldn't concentrate, and on most of the unsuccessful ones, I couldn't sleep. I tried beta-blockers and I felt like a zombie, I was so lethargic, but my insides were still filled with panic,--I just felt like I couldn't "do" anything about those feelings.
Some of the side-effects of those other drugs included increased health anxiety. My body felt like it wasn't my own, and that I was going to die because of those drugs.
I started on 20mg Prozac, (this was back in the 1980's---I think?) and these past 1-2 years, my dosage was raised to 40mg. Works like a charm.
For me, in the beginning, I had a little de-personalization, mood swings, forgetfulness, and occasional bouts of frustrated anger.
It took several weeks for my blood levels to reach the proper level, and when they did, it made a world of difference to me! I can look back now and see just how "mal-functioning" I was prior to Prozac.
Any "side effect" I had was not only very temporary, but they were, by comparison, quite mild compared to some of the other drugs my psychiatrists put me on, so it was easier for me to commit to stick it out.
I am so, so glad that I did. I can honestly say that Prozac has been (and will continue to be) on of the best medications that I have ever been on. My Husband has witnessed all of this, and completely agrees with me.
Remember, this is "for me," and it's "my story" of great success after a number of dreadful failures. Every body responds differently to different medications. But one caveat is, most A/D's do take weeks to really get into your blood stream and reach an effective, optimal level. None of them are "overnight cures."
Even Prozac isn't a "cure" for me. But with it, (and I also am in therapy), I find that I'm in a better place, mentally, to be open to coping skills.
Stay in touch and let us know how you make out!
M.