Hello, this is my story

Oh, about 12 years ago, I'd say is when it all started happening. I was about 19 or 20 (I am 32 years old now). I dipped snuff (Still do lol) and my throat became sore. This went on for months, and I went to the doctor and they put me on antibiotic after antibiotic. It never got better so, I just knew that I had throat cancer due to dipping. Well, my throat problem cleared up, and I never had cancer but this was the beginning of the horrible journey. I started to think I had everything under the sun wrong with me, and once I was even riding in the car and felt a pain in my chest and knew it was a heart attack, and I had my first panic attack there.
This went on for a long time, with CONSTANT anxiety about my health and well-being and I had panic attacks all the time. Well, I started to learn how to deal with the anxiety and attacks, and they went away over time.

I went years, and I mean YEARS without one. Oh, I would still feel them trying to come, or I would feel those old worries about my health and sanity come back, but I was able to push them away and keep them at bay. I've always been nervous around people and going out to malls and such, but I was doing great for a long time.
Recently, I got very dizzy while talking to a clerk at the mall, and a mild panic attack hit me, but I dealt with it pretty good. This would happen every once in awhile, and I would get nervous at my doctor's office and my blood pressure would be up. But, once I was out and with my kids and wife in the car, I was fine. Also completely fine at home.

I do take medication for cholesterol and high blood pressure, and I take stomach pills for acid reflux, gerd and a hernia that I have. I also used to drink heavy, but went to rehab and quit in August of 2012.

Well, a week and a half ago, I was home cleaning and mopping and my lips started to tingle and feel numb. I looked in the mirror and they looked blue. Like a dummy, I went online to check it out, and I seen stroke and all these horrible things and I had a full blown panic attack! The first bad one in years. Come to find out the Pine-Sol I used got on my hands as I wringed the mop, and got on my lips, and the light bulb in the bathroom where I looked in the mirror makes everything look blue lol.

But, the health anxieties haven't let up at all. My landlord went to the hospital a few days later and had a mini-stroke, and selfishly, this hit me hard for some reason. Panic attacks hit left and right, high anxiety also. Felt like my left and and foot and my face was tingling at times, and dizziness, flushed face, cold hands and feet, sweating from hands and feet. When I calmed myself down, I feel much better.
Well, tonight I haven't had much signs (I did have fluttering in the chest last night which scared me, but I have felt those because of my hernia), but tonight my nerves are on edge very bad. Feels like I am loosing my mind, and afraid of my blood pressure being to high. It's so hard to get these obsessive thoughts out of my mind, I did it before, and I have no idea how I did.

I most likely will talk to my doctor at my next appointment which is the 14th of this month. As for self-help, I am just trying all that I can from keeping my mind off the worry. The worry is worse than the panic attacks. The worry even makes it VERY difficult for me to eat.

It's like a cycle. I worry to death about my blood pressure, which raises it, which makes me worry about it.

Also, to add that I just can't hardly eat in the day. The thought of food makes me gag.