Hey all, I'm back and I'm really freaking out! Need some advice please.

I know it's been a while since I last logged on, and I have been doing ok I suppose, but the last 6 months of 2013 were HORRIBLE. That's the only way I can explain it. 6 deaths within 6 months, all sons of friends of mine. The last was December 21st. 21 y/o passed away in a car accident. I think I told you all about my sister's step son in October, well this one was his cousin, so all basically family related.

Anyway, things have been super busy for me and I've been dealing with all of it very well, if I must say so myself.

I think I told you all before that I was stopping all ssri's and just sticking with the xanax 2-3 times a day. I do try and only take a .5 xanax twice a day, which is much less than they want me to take anyway (1 mg, 3 times a day).

Well, it's been over a week, and I have been having palpitations every day, non stop, from 100 - 128 bpm. I don't feel nervous or anxious at all and then they hit and it sends me into an anxiety attack. I have pretty much controlled them, but I just can't figure out why the palpitations!

I had all cardio tests done just last year and everything came back fine, they said I have the heart of an athlete, but this crap is scaring me again.

It all started for me when I decided to take a B12 vitamin (which I have been taking anyway, because of a deficiency), but this one had Super B Complex in it. Took them for 4 days, and for those 4 days I suffered palpitations and increased anxiety. I'm assuming it had to do with the B Complex, since I've never taken that before, only the B12 itself. I read up on it afterwards, finding that some of the B vitamins actually cause anxiety and panic attacks in people who are prone to them.

Well it's been about 2 weeks now since I stopped taking them, and I STILL feel anxious and am having the palpitations ALL THE TIME. The xanax is calming my anxiety, but it's NOT taking away the palpitations, nor is the breathing exercise I usually use to slow my heart rate. I don't understand what's going on, because I had total control of all of that until I tried this new vitamin.

I am scheduled for a colonoscopy on Tuesday, and I'm not really scared or anything about it, but maybe it's in the back of my mind. I can't figure it out though.

Any help or advice on this one would be GREATLY appreciated. I'm really freaking out here thinking something is wrong with my heart again...

Thanks everyone!
(((Big hugs))) Fox

Hi Foxie, Larry here, I'm glad to hear from you but I just hate it
that you are struggling. I am one of those people who cant take
any of the B vitamins, makes me shake really bad, and the
b compliex makes me sick to my stomach, Peace

Larry ***

Thanks guys! I really appreciate the replies. I'm not sure what is causing it. Could be a mixture of a lot of things I guess. Peri-meno for one, anxiety, vitamin deficiencies, the vitamins I tried could have sent me into a tailspin..... who knows.

For all I know it could be that in the back of my mind I'm afraid of the colonoscopy on Tuesday. Blood work came back with high levels of something that points to Crohn's Disease, but my primary doc and the gastro doc don't think it's Crohn's at this point because I don't really have any of the common symptoms of it.

Although I don't know why I'd be freaking out about that, it's not like I've never been put under anesthesia before. Maybe it's just the "not knowing" right now WHY the levels are high.

Anyway, I'm gonna try to take some magnesium supplements for a few days and see if that helps. If not, then I guess I should put in a call to the cardio doc and see what's up just to be on the safe side.

Thanks again!
(((hugs))) Fox

Thank you Weary, feel free to use that prayer whenever you want, I actually forget where I got it myself, but that's what it's there for. If it helps anyone, I'm happy.

Awww! Thank you Kitt! Your reply really does mean the world to me! I'm sorry I have been gone so long, but it's just so much to deal with, and I know I should come here for the support of others just like me, but I have buried myself in my own little hole again. I guess it's time to start digging myself out....

I have actually thought about going back on an AD to be honest. The xanax alone has been working for my anxiety and panic, but in all honesty I feel at this time there is just so much that is setting off my OCD and PTSD, along with messing with my depression. The xanax is hardly touching my palpitations, and we ALL know that I have major anxiety when it comes to my heart.

When I went in last year to the cardiologist, I was diagnosed with having Sinus Tachycardia, and it scares me to death to think that it could be something more serious again. I guess the "what if" thoughts have come back screaming at me again.

I'm a little nervous now about this colonoscopy and I really don't know why. I actually can't wait to see, if anything, what is causing the blood levels to come up high, but at the same time I guess I'm nervous about what they will find, if anything.

I hope you are doing well with your treatments, and I want you to know that although I haven't been on in a while, I have been thinking of you.

Much Love!
((hugs)) Fox

PS

Your prayer is so so good to hear, thank you. I will use it too.

Charlie