Help me! PTSD on 50mg zoloft feel depersonalisation and anxious

Hi I have been on 50mg of sertraline zoloft for about a month now because two years ago my sister was in a really bad bike accident inwhich our dad died and she was lefted in intensive care for two months. Broken back shattered pelvis. Everyday for the first two weeks we were told she wasn't going to make it. Organ donations etc. She made it and is now pregnant (26weeks little boy Harley) A few months ago i startedI suffering with really bad panic and anxiety attacks which lasted for days. I got so scared I went to the doctors crying. They have put me on medication but I don't feel "normal" is this because of the medication or because I am having an emotional break down now because I know my sister is fine and its my turn to accept and deal with what happened? I really need help as im getting married next year as I said my sister is happy safe and pregnant but I cant help having these emotional breakdowns. I constantly feel like im not actually living or being "myself" I really want to start feeling like "me" again. Also I had rhinoplasty 3 months ago and feel maybe this is effecting me too. What do I do? I keep on the tablets because I think one day I'll be better but I think their making me feel unreal and maybe suffering from depersonalisation! ! Help me???

Post Edited (anxious90) : 3/11/2014 3:15:25 PM (GMT-6)

Anxious90,

Welcome to HW. You're sure to find many folks here who will be able to offer various types of input and assistance. Getting different perspectives on what we're experience can be a valuable tool in helping us know we're not alone!

I'll start off with some random basics, just to get the ball rolling.....have you had a full physical (always a good place to start!)? Would you mind sharing with us what meds you're on and how long you've been on them? We all react so uniquely to various medications, but, depending on the med, most take several weeks of being taken consistently to give your body time to adapt (most traditional anti-depressants, for example).

Were you prescribed these meds by a psychiatrist? Do you have one?

Are you currently in therapy?

I'm a big advocate of therapy along with self-help techniques. It sounds like you've got quite a stew going on with a number of different issues,....each in itself enough to cause anxiety, but combined, I'm sure you're feeling like you're on overload right now.

This forum has become like family for me because,...even though it's online,....you're interacting with such an assortment of personalities and experiences, it's been both therapeutic, and educational! In that regard, I'm quite fond of everyone here, and I'm sure you will find everyone warm and welcoming as well.

It's a safe place to ask questions and share knowledge.






M.

Hi Anxious and welcome!

First off congratulations on your upcoming wedding and the birth of your nephew. It sounds like things are going in the right direction...now to just get to feeling like yourself again!:)

There is hope for that, and it is possible!

You have received great advice already, so I will just second the recommendation to look at as many treatment options as you can!

Therapy and/or self help is of great use in recovering from anxiety/panic disorder. If you would like some ideas, look in our Resources here:

https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=104206

The stress relief exercises are especially helpful if practiced daily!

Like Merrida and MSP mentioned above...it can take several weeks for a med to start to take effect.  Since you are nearing the halfway mark, give it time.

However, if you feel that your side effects are more than you can take,  it may be time to have a talk with your doctor about an alternative med, and the possibility of a therapy referral...to help you get the best spectrum of help. :)

Keep posting with us as well. We understand, and are here to listen and support anytime!

Scaredy Cat