I'm new. Finally admitting anxiety problem...

Hello all,

This is my first time ever joining a forum. I'm in need of general help as well as comfort for what I'm going through.


My anxiety started when I was 16 years old and literally thought I wasn't going to make it past 23. I thought I'd die from some or other disease.

Well here I am now 24 and still healthy, thank God. I'm still struggling with anxiety. It got so much worse after I had my lovely daughter. Now everything is focused on her. What if this happens to her. What if I mess up and she ends up getting sick over my mistake.

It's constant torturous thoughts that I can't get rid of. My doctor prescribed me Xanax .25 which barely does anything. My husband asks me why I can't just "calm down and get over it."
How do I even explain this to him? I've tried but he just thinks it's all in my head. Which it is... But I can't help it!

People I just can't take these thoughts anymore, please a word of advice, anything...

RBS,

Welcome to our HW Forum.

You're in among a good group of people who can share in understanding where you're coming from.

If you use the search-feature at the top and type in some of your major symptoms, you'll find lots (and lots and lots!) of related posts. It's a good place to start looking.

Again, welcome to our lovely group of members and please feel free to share as well as ask questions....








M.

BS,

First of all I want to give you some warm virtual hugs and tell you that you are OK, and you will find so many members here that experience the same things you are going through. You have come to the right place for support and sharing.

I am sorry that you are dealing with this issue at the moment. It is a very scary to have torturous thoughts, and many of us can empathize.

Sometimes people around us can't relate and it's hard not to be frustrated and see that they don't it deliberately. Anxiety and despair are scary things and those who never had a chance to experience them can't understand what we are going through.

My hubby has been dealing with my depression and anxiety for over 30 years but 90 % of the time I do well.  I do have a psychiatrist and I do go to therapy when things get really bad.

Many of us have great friends and family, but maybe they can't relate, or we have to be the stability for the household...but we understand that it is important to talk with those who truly understand what each other is dealing with...and here we all share common struggles and experiences.

I experience anticipatory anxiety and I am sensing that is a problem for you also.  Here is a link that will explain how the "what if?" thoughts work.

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/debunking-myths-the-mind/201101/anticipatory-anxiety-the-suffering-and-solutions

Keep talking with us as we are here for you - I believe you will get through this hard time now that you have a new online family to support you.

Kindly,

Kitt

The article you posted stkitt was really good info! Thanks for adding that, it helped me too.

Hugs...

Your husband is most likely saying that because the whole thing scares him and he doesn't know how to react or handle it...but that still doesn't make it easy to take!
Please consider talking with a therapist...you need to talk in person with someone who will listen objectively to WHATEVER it is you want to say...
If you feel that you can't afford that, try contacting a Science of Mind or Religious Science Church (I don't mean Christian Science) and talk with one of their well trained ministers... who might objectively help you without making you feel that you are 'doing something sinful or wrong.' Its just an idea. This helped me once quite a bit... its worth a try, but would be great if you could deal with a pro. therapist.