I am so sorry to hear that things seem to have gotten bad for you and let me give you a couple of ideas.
First, accept that in order to become more mindful, we must recognize that we are solely responsible for the thoughts our minds produce. While we can’t stop our minds completely, we can take control over them and create moments of peace for ourselves.
When thoughts or fear arise, try to do the following as soon as you are aware of what’s taking place in your mind and body:
Stop
- Take a long, deep breath in and out. In your mind say “in” as you breathe in and “out” as you breathe out in order to ground yourself in the present moment.
- Then, feel the ground beneath your feet. Notice the way your clothes feel against your skin, the wind against your face, the sun on your cheeks. Listen to the birds singing, the rain falling around you, or the ticking of a nearby clock.
All this will ground you in the present moment. Even if thoughts want to drag you away with them, coming back to recognize the breath will give you the control you need to prevent this from happening.
Follow these steps until you feel that the thought or storyline in your mind has moved on, or until you feel that the pull of your thought or fear has dissipated slightly.
At this point, you can return to whatever you were doing, and hopefully you will have prevented yourself from suffering in that moment.
This takes much practice but with practice comes peace.
Kindly,
Kitt