Just Had to Post

Sometimes things get better for quite awhile...and they actually DO...its not like you are 'just kidding yourself.'
Then, like this morning, things take a real downward, scary, awful spiral and you think it will not end. Its not a panic attack... its just a dark, ominous feeling that totally seems to take over...like you have been 'trapped' in this dark cloud. Its hard to believe it will ever go away... during those times I try to meditate, pray, distract myself, talk to myself, etc... and its like nothing does any good. There IS this tiny little spark that is saying: It will be ok again, really it will.
This is a strange blend of anxiety and depression I guess. Sometimes just plain old depression feels like RELIEF (I hope you know what I mean)... Sometimes anger is good because it like sweeps it all out...
But best of all is a peaceful happy GOOD feeling... that is what I am wishing for every single one of you today... We shall overcome!!

good for you Betts. it sounds like you have a good awareness of your up and down cycle. i do know what you mean about the dark cloud, i have found praying, sharing and journaling the best way out of a down phase. sometimes i am able to turn it around, other times i just have to ride it out. it's great that you have that little voice that everything will be ok.

i wish you continued up periods!

Betts
That does happen because it happened to me a few times already. And now I'm back to the good again and a little part of me does worry when I will feel bad again. We can go a long time feeling okay and then out of the blue it hits. I hope one day we can all just talk on here and say we are freed of anxiety for good..

I want to say THANK YOU to all that responded. I appreciate every one of your comments.