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Posted 7/7/2014 10:15 AM (GMT 0)
Hi guys!

After having GERD, I became more health conscious and anxious. I began to have anxiety on different aspects in my life...

Has anyone feel old even if you're not too old? I mean the feeling of there's so little time left, the gloomy and sad feeling! And sometimes even my physical body feels so weak, I am NOT in pain but it feels like I don't have enough energy to do the things I enjoyed before. I also have episodes of depression especially in the afternoon when the day is almost over, I feel so sad..
Posted 7/7/2014 6:02 PM (GMT 0)
Yes, absolutely. You're not alone.

In my case, it's a double-down in that I've dealt with anxiety/depression/panic from a very young age (childhood), and I've also got degenerative physical issues and have been told since I was in my 20's that my body, in particular my spine and other joints, equates to what they'd normally see in someone who was in their 70's.

Well, I'm 51 now so I guess that makes me about 110 years old?

I do understand what it feels like. We're all, truthfully, on borrowed time. Learning to come to peace with "the present," with "the now," is the only power and strength and truth we really have.

Have you taken a peek at our Depression Forum? There's a very awesome collection of people over there!! I'd encourage you to stop in and visit. It always helps (at least I think it does, that's my opinion), when we can interact with others who 'get it' and who contribute to a judgment-free zone.

HW provides that! :)









M.
Posted 7/7/2014 7:41 PM (GMT 0)
I'm 51 too Merrida, and depression/anxiety/panic since I was a girl, always felt so out of place compared to my peers.

This coming to terms with getting old and dying is so hard for those of us who fear every little medical thing. To angelcat, you are not alone...
Posted 7/7/2014 8:07 PM (GMT 0)
Hi angelcat,

You are not alone, even when I was in my 20's at times I felt old because I had to take so many different meds and at times that just made me feel a little old. I've been dealing with major depression, anxiety and ptsd since a very young age, my childhood and it's always made me feel a little older or like something was really wrong with me compared to others my age. I know that gloomy and sad feeling and that weak feeling. The worse my depression is doing the less energy I have to do things I normally enjoy doing and when you add on the anxiety and ptsd on top of that sometimes even small things are hard for me to do, so you are definitely not alone. I hope this helps.
Posted 7/8/2014 12:10 AM (GMT 0)
Oh my. Count me in. Since reaching 50, I feel every ache pain and no energy. I'm not in menopause yet but man the fatique can really be bad.
Posted 7/8/2014 12:15 AM (GMT 0)
I have GERD too. Have been working on a low carb, wheat free diet that seemed to help. I slipped up and had ice cream today and the pressure in my stomach came back but it was improved, although I think the lack of sugar has been giving me some sort of sugar withdrawls.
Posted 7/8/2014 12:21 AM (GMT 0)
It seems like a lot of us have gerd. I also have it.
Posted 7/8/2014 1:32 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks everyone. I appreciate all your stories and advices! I will definitely read the articles and discussions here, to learn more and get some help. I know everyone has dealt with anxiety way longer than me, so I might learn from your experiences or relate to it. With all your responses, I learned that I should not feel hopeless, i might try to cope with it and at the same time, learn to change my outlook..

Merrida,
I have a mild sideways curve on my spine, and my doctor told me there's nothing to worry about. But i've also been having joint pain especially around my shoulder area. I'm a graphic artist and most of my days work infront of my computer, drawing sketching and painting. I also have a baby niece who I always carry and babysit. My doctor told me the pain might be the effect of my job and niece, but most of the time I find it dofficult to believe, which makes me think of many possible serious illnesses.

Post Edited (angelcat) : 7/7/2014 8:05:33 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 7/8/2014 7:07 AM (GMT 0)
To add to my list of diagnostically proven "issues," I have spondylolisthesis, spondylosis, and almost every area in my cervical/thoracic and lumbar regions are filled with degenerative discs, herniations, loss of disc height, dehydrated discs, foraminal impingement, bone on bone (organic fusions), bone spurs.....

I have in my possession my cervical, thoracic and lumbar MRI's and they still astonish me. Especially since so many levels are described using words like "severe!!" I often feel like my docs ignore this instead of looking at how all of these are affecting me. It irritates the bejeezus out of me. My neck's become so involved that I have difficulty swallowing (and yes, my thyroid is fine), and my ROM is sooooo incredibly restricted (whole spine)....

(Yet another reason I am PO'd about not being able to get further PT sessions).

Most people our age do not encounter this DEGREE of these problems until decades later. SOME of what we have, I get it, I understand, lots of people have this. But they keep forgetting (or omitting) that those folks do not have it as severe or at the grade/level we do.

That's another thorn in my side. Dismissed due to our age.

I was dismissed in my 20's and 30's. I walked into an ER because I couldn't move, I was hunched over forward, bearing weight by putting my hands on my thighs to help me walk. The noobie doctor there told me (get this,....I never forgot this insulting and dismissive remark).....I couldn't "really" have any type of back pain because,.....(wait for it)......"people with back pain do not bend forward from pain, they lean backwards and hold onto their back to support it!!"

I commented that I'd think it would depend on what was wrong with the person's back (logical and astute observation) but all that did was get me kicked out earlier with even less care and exam and no diagnostic because I was "so young" to have this type and degree of back pain.

Heard it all before........








M.
Posted 7/8/2014 3:14 PM (GMT 0)
Woah, those are quite a list... I do hope everything's OK now for you... i felt the same when the doctor dismissed it and don't really pay mich attention. She thinks I'm too young to have something serious.
I wonder if I need to be checked by another doctor, because the pain I'm feeling is quite bearable and tolerable. I can still do things I want to. It doesn't seem to interfere with my activities,,, it just interferes with my MOOD and emotion... So I might observe more..

Thanks alot for the good words, I will definitely copy paste this in my notepad! This will be a great reminder for me... I am also reading previous posts and responses.. Looks like there's a bunch of true friends here, like in the GERD forum!
Thanks alot! Hope everyone a nice day!

Post Edited (angelcat) : 7/8/2014 9:17:37 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 7/8/2014 3:40 PM (GMT 0)
Angel,

Great input from the members who have responded to you.

You posted,  "it feels like I don't have enough energy to do the things I enjoyed before".  I feel the same way but my psychiatrist blamed that on my depression and anxiety.  The first part of 2012 I just felt exhausted and not able to do the things I like to do even at home.

My Pdoc increased my antidepressant which made things worse...............

Finally in August of 2012 a medical reason was found for my fatigue which I continue to deal with but knowing the problem has helped me learn to push myself a little harder and not give into the fatigue. I rest when my body demands rest which is like clockwork - every day around 2:00 PM.

I did not find myself feeling old until the fatigue set in. 

I still do not feel old, but I do feel sick.

I am going to encourage you to see a Rheumatologist for a second opinion for your joint pain.

 

Women and men of all ages can develop osteoarthritis, and approximately 27 million Americans over the age of 25 are diagnosed with osteoarthritis. That said, women over the age of 45 are at increased risk of developing the condition.

I am not a Dr. so I cannot dx and I would probably get it wrong redface so do seek a second opinion from a Dr. that deals is joint pain..............

Yes, I have GERD - however- the anxiety/depression came first. I also have osteoarthritis.

I wish you peace,

Kitt

Posted 7/8/2014 4:35 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks skitt, I seriously consider seeing a Rheumatologist. What other symptoms do you have with osteoarthritis aside from the joint pain? I'm very new with different health conditions, all I know is a simple flu or allergy.. I wouldn't know gerd and anxiety until I had it, and it really changed my life.
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