Just Want To Be Better

Do you ever get to the point where you say why ? Why? Why I mean I know there are people dealing with much worse than me, and I know my main problem is the hypothyroidism and Iam just getting so sick and tired . For the last week I've been giving my all to stay out the hospital dealing with sugar dropping to the 50's,and feeling like I have the flu which I believe I don't, to having attacks mild and manageable both sides of my jaw teeth in pain causing both my ears to ache to the point I would like to cry like a little baby that's how bad the pain is. Have no energy, lethargic as well as forgetful first week of school and I am already asking myself why did I make that mistake, feel like I should've got my health all the way in order but Iam way over tired of working at this dead end job very much frustrating not being paid your worth. Just need some encouraging words because Iam truly run down going to the hospital in am to have them re-check my thyroid, as well as hemoglobin level was told was mildly anemic but not to bad for another transfusion Iam very much frustrated and sick of it being if it aint one thing it's a dam another and It don't help I don't have insurance very much frustrating truly think it's time to go on disability until health is in complete order just angry at all that's going on just when my life is starting to get in order Iam being attacked with everything Iam a good person I don't deserve all this I deserve good things and to be a winner.

I hear ya soul- you are feeling overwhelmed as am I.

Sometimes when there are a bunch of small things one on top of another it is just as distressing as a major issue someone else is experiencing.

Hang in there...that's what I'm trying to do...

Jociper, I love what you said, very inspiring.

It is not much of depression or anxiety, it is hypothyroidism that cause me to have to deal with both, had been doing well, but my thyroid yet again is out of order and if people knew how serious this disorder can be. They would then understand why it is a fight to keep mental health in control, the thyroid gland is the master controller for our bodies controlling the pituitary gland in the brain that effect serotonin levels it is just a hit miss. Hypothyroidism meaning my thyroid tissue isn't functioning properly basically little to none, puts whole system out of wack not just leaving me fighting to get thyroid back in order . But also trying to stay sain that's why it is so hard for psyc doctor to get me on proper medicine, so yes it is beyond frustrating not feeling balance and just feeling off then doesn't help my hair is also breaking off/coming out another sign that my dang thyroid is way out of control talking about someone who number is off the scale and feeling like a dead zombie no fun at all for people like me for it will forever be a dang fight thanks for the encouragement for it I'm grateful.

Soul,
I can tell your having a rough time and I'm so sorry. I know I have felt the same way when I was at my worst. No I don't have thyroid issues yet, but anxiety can also mess with our sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous system. Some of the symptoms can be just as bad. Seems like you are having a double whammy..all of us experience things differently but I think we can all agree when we feel at our worst we are frustrated... Good luck and wishing you peace and hope.