Still struggling leukemia fear

Not looney at all! That sounds awful and you shouldn't have to face it alone. This forum is a wonderful place for support.

Hugs and prayers for you....

Are you saying the doctors have tested you as being negative for leukemia but you feel like you have symptoms? (Sorry, I'm new here so don't know background.) I'd trust what they're saying. Those symptoms can apply to so many things. It's hard not to be scared, and get especially worked up when Googling, but blood work is usually reliable.

By the way, my aunt was diagnosed with leukemia decades ago. She went on a macrobiotic diet and just celebrated her 90th birthday this month.

But idk how to let it go, literally the only time I'm not worried about leukemia, is when I'm asleep with the few hours I actually do get....and the wbc 3.3 scares me so much , I recently found out my grandmothers is 2.9, I'm gonna copy and past the text she sent me below, I just feel awful, spleen pain, gas, weakness , no apetite which is what sent me to the dr. But this is what my grandmother told me , I hope this isn't against the rules in anyway? But here goes :Honey mine is 2.9 because of being African American. You have nothing to worry about. It is normal. They are good doctors. They will tell you the truth. They have no reason to lie to you. I trust them with my health and that is why I got you there. Relax and enjoy life and your girlfriend. You are a healthy young man!

Why do you say I would know if I had it?

Thank you Larry, it's just the symptoms especially the cold throat sensation and weak feverish feeling, and spleen discomfort

I have health anxiety too. It's the pits! Totally stinks. I have a new disease every day in my mind! And a ton of lovely symptoms to go along with them too. Like today, I even went to the ER because I thought my blood pressure was giving out on me, and that surely it was going to be my last moments on earth. And I was so hopeful the doctor would find a problem. He didn't. You're not alone. Lots of us suffer with this type of anxiety. Try and wait it out, wait for the joy to be restored to your soul. Has there been any good days for you lately?

Hmmmm.... I totally understand the serious feelings you have about this. I am always feeling concerned that my heart palpitations are going to equal the death of me, then I end up feeling terribly ill. I always count the good days, or even good moments, as a blessing, because the down ones are so tough on the soul. Lately I have been trying to look to God in all of this, and just realize that my fate is in His hands. I would hate to die so young, but it's truly out of my hands. I have done everything I can to try and get to the bottom of my health issues with no luck.

Sorry that I haven't gone through all the above posts, but have you seen a doctor? If so, what did they say?

I have a similar story, so again I know how you feel. My liver enzymes were slightly elevated 4 months ago. Totally freaked me out. I was convinced I was in liver failure and that I only had months to live. My doctor said it was likely just going to take a few months to return to normal. My anxiety took off though, and my mind zoomed to the worst possible outcomes.

Doc said he'd draw my blood again in 3 months and check then. So, for a while I was googling everything related to liver enzymes, and was totally freaked out EVERY DAY and looking for any symptoms associated with liver failure. Then of course, I caught a nasty stomach virus, which only made my fear worse. When I finally focused on the reality that I have no control over the day of my death, it made the 3 month wait a lot easier. My enzymes have since normalized and I've mostly realized my worry was just another example of my health anxiety.

I'd be willing to bet that if our WBC was just slightly low, it is likely not a huge concern. Maybe try and think of it as a possibility with a LOW probability. With anxiety, lots of times we all mix up possibility with probabilities. We assume things with low probabilities are actually happening. Is it possible that you have Leukemia, well ya, but it's possible with every person on the planet. Is it probable that you have Leukemia? Well, the probability factor is a lot lower, not as probable.

Does your doctor want to check your blood again in the future? Or is this just something that you let ride? I feel for ya. I hate being in this anxiety cycle... going round and round and feeling crazy because the doctor's never seem to think anything is physically wrong!

And no they haven't requested that I retest....the only reason she wants me to come back to see her is so she Can see how the anxiety meds are doing....she didn't mention anything about another cbc

I just scheduled appointment for next week but yes all of wha you said I want advice and prayer

I see my doc against next Thursday , I'm just very scared because I've been having spleen discomfort but my two doctors both aid they don't feel my spleen swollen it feels normal, but since I'm having this discomfort and it says low wbc is associated with enlarged spleen ...so tht pretty much puts the icing on the cake for me....

I am jumping in here late so please forgive me, If I were to look at symptoms on the internet I would have all of them, my doctor finally told me "NO MORE GOOGLE SEARCHES, on health related issues"

I do understand when you are worried about something it is hard to get it out of you mind.

My son was diagnosed with Opsoclonus Myoclonus syndrome at 28 months old, a very rare neurological condition, and they were looking for cancer Neuroblastoma, the did find a mass in his throat but thank god it was benign. I would look up every thing, join forums and then start second guessing my doctor because his technique was totally different than these other doctors(he believed in the least amount of medicine possible to get the job done, where all these other children were being pumped with medication) He told me to stay out of the chat rooms and forums, because it made me question him.

Long story short, my sons doctor is the head of Pediatric Neurology @ UF in Gainesville, and he was right my son is a miracle, even the doctor admitted it.