Fear of going crazy again and again!!!

Hi

I'm a 29 years old male. My case started 7 years ago when I was diagnosed with depression. Following that my depression developed other illnesses such as OCD and anxiety. I can say that during this 7 years my life had a lot of ups and downs and some sort of instability, very harmful at some points and normal at other points.

40 days ago I was in bed trying to sleep when i felt am too nervous and can't breath and ended up fainting. After waking up I had this massive fear of going crazy. One day after I visited a phsycaterist who prescribed me some medications. Unfortunately I didn't commit to taking the prescribed bells. What now am feeling is that am still afraid of insanity or being marked by other as a mentally ill person. Even when am trying to fight these thoughts by ignoring them and marking them as unreal I still feel that am not mentally stable and still feel fearful when laughing or dealing normally with friends and family. For the very first time I feel really anxious and confused when around people whom I used to enjoy spending time with to an extent that I feel sometimes I will lose control and start screaming. My self esteem is at it's lowest and really wish I can know how to deal my with these changes and have my life back on track.

It might happen to mention that these days am having increased life stress events related to work, family, house and financial situation.

I would really appreciate your feedback on my case and to share if anyone had experienced the same.

Thanks

I just want you to know that having a problem like anxiety/ depression/ panic, etc in no way makes you a crazy person. It is no different than a person who has any other medical problem. Hugs.

Hi Morif10,

I feel you the same when my mind tells me that ill be going crazy, my action will be sort of. i used to be happy along with my family but im getting irritable and angry now and dont know how to manage this. and by just standing by and doing nothing, it always infere my mind with different thoughts

Hi scaredy,

The problem is that I can't stop searching for success stories of this type of illness on the web and unfortunately I found only few compared to other type of phobias.

In addition, some articles I read stated that these fears can lead to madness so am not sure what to believe now.

I wish I can hear some real stories from people here suffering from the same issue as I believe it will help a lot.

Thanks,

Nope insanity is my concern actually and I feel it already got into me.

Sorry but I feel really hopeless today and wish I can catch a sleep as fast as possible

i saw the psychiatrist today morning and he prescribed me akamon 3mg, cymbalta, and seroquel. In addition he just did me some kind of an anxiety test and refused to discuss more details with me claiming that all of these fears will be gone if i commit to the prescribed medication. I just had my first bells of akamon and cymbalta and feel that am somewhat able to control these fears now although am feeling a bit sleepy and high.

Anyone can relate?

Can you please advise what were the type of anxiety you aweye suffering from?annd how intense waist?

The relaxation I felt after taking my first bells of symblats and akamon made feel better,but like stupid I kept on searching for more info about the drugs until I read am artical saying that my sever anxiety might develop to pysycosis. And here we go again

Hi,

After being on prescribed medications for almost 9 days, i started feeling much better and have been able to control my thoughts to a certain extent during the day and perform well at my work.

Yesterday, i was feeling very well and almost anxiety free during the time at was at work. When i left my work at almost 6:00 pm the thoughts of going crazy had popped up again to my mind, so i started thinking why my fears always increase by evening and that led me to the idea that i might be suffering from schizophrenia.

I started searching the symptoms of schizophrenia and found that i already have some of them (which are also common symptoms of anxiety as well). To the best of what i know i have never had any delusions or hallucinations or unorganized speech and no one from the close people i know had ever gave me this comment.

So just wanted to know how common is this fear and how can i reassure myself that this is only anxiety.

In last two days I feel that I had some kind of emotional blunt and loss of desire to talk, as whenever i talk to anyone I keep on doubting whatever i say and telling myself what if what am saying is impairment and people will notice that there is something wrong with. Though, at some occasions including a date yesterday that i with a new girl I felt totally normal and had all my fears gone.

Am totally afraid and overwhelmed by the idea that am going crazy and sometimes i can feel am convinced that i already did.


I hope that there is one here who can relate to my symptoms and give me some advises as what am passing through is truly scarring.

Have you spoken to your doctor about these specific fears? I used to be paralyzed by my fear of becoming insane..still am sometimes. I do simple things like math problems, reciting family member names addresses, etc. I also have my bf ask me questions like who is the president, where were the 2014 Olympics, how do you tie a knot? Etc. by answering these, I know that I am not psychotic or insane, because a patient experiencing psychosis or schizophrenia would typically not have the reality orientation or ability to solve simple problems....
I could go on. My experience through all of the times I thought I was going crazy...they felt real. But it was my constant heightened level of anxiety that made it such. I can tell by your posts that you are not "going crazy", or crazy. You need to work on your self confidence, so you can trust yourself during these episodes. Also, find a friend and have them ask you some questions...quickest way to reassure yourself that you're sane!
Sorry I'm rambling...I have much more to share, but I want you to know that you're not alone, and you're NOT crazy!!

In fact i told my doctor about these fears and he only prescribed some medications that ive been on for almost 2 weeks now. I feel that what is causing my anxiety to increase is the horrible mood swings i experience; at morning when i wake up i always feel horrible that i dont wanna go out of my bed, then whenever am at work and take my medication the whole thing changes and i barely have any fears of thought, this mood usually last till 6:00 pm after that i feel that the fear become overwhelming to an extent that makes me feel that i already went crazy or lost control.

I dont know if anyone had felt the same mood swings and this feeling of losing it but its truly scary and causes huge set backs for me.

bad eating
ph level in gut with toxins
gerd

bad eating = imbalance ph level in gut

imbalance ph level in gut = cause GERD

GERD = more toxins in your gut ph

more toxins in your gut ph = sending bad signals to your nerves !

a circle become vice versa and affected physical to mental and mental to physical ! and enxiety create or boots

don't eat junk food , chemical prossesed food , eat natural food without garlic

avoid Garlic and spicy food , fried food.
eat pumpkin and chang your diet as well as much early !

hope n wishing well , good things in your life !

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Post Edited (Strong_N_Compassionate !) : 8/18/2014 10:51:23 PM (GMT-6)

M.,

I am sorry that you had such an awful night.:(

Yes, you could be experiencing some bad start up effects. These could fade in time, but if you feel that they are unbearable, definitely talk to your P-doc.

...and please consider looking into therapy. Finding the right medication in combination with therapy is a winning treatment for many people.:)

S.C.