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Posted 8/29/2014 9:15 PM (GMT 0)
I am a Junior in college, I cannot seem to think that I have it well even though I have it so well and am so fortunate.

I have been "diagnosed" add, GAD and possibly depression.

I am taking 60 mg vyvnase and it works great till it wears off and now I got it bumped up to 70mg and will try that dose next week. I just hate the sad feeling I get whenever I am alone.. And i know some people will say try to get out and do stuff but the kicker is that I am the leader of a extremely popular student organization. It isn't necessarily that I am never invited to things or don't have people to see but it's just that I don't choose too. My life is becoming too centered around pills.

The only way to alleviate this feeling is to take my clonazeapam which calms me down. It is a terrible addictive cycle. I am never like this when I am at home . I hardly took my clonazepam while at home. Maybe God is trying to tell me what I am doing at this school isn't right?

I am so sick of feeling sad and down . But consequentially that comes only on my come down of amphetamines. I don't want to go out even though I don't like being alone. I am lost more now that I have ever.
Posted 8/29/2014 9:57 PM (GMT 0)
Big guy this is Larry, I went through much of the same stuff you are in VN, they tought I was a
pshcice case, maybe I was, for a long time I liked being alone, it was the division Priest who
told me, son you are the driver of the bus you are on, go where you want, well I wouldn't say
I was a coward but I sure did have a healthy fear of the enemy, at the age of 20 I had my
friend dye in my arms and me lying to him saying no no we are going to get you to the medics
and then you will be on your way home, yea, but in a box, I felt him go slack and loose his
vital functions, but I did care for him and until he died he really thought he was on his way
home, and I Prayed for him, I Loved Him and all my Brothers. May you can forgive me SMU
I seem to be doing some refraining here, the thing is, we are driving our own buss, just try
to remember, you don't have to do a darn thing you don't want to, and no one or thing can
stop you either, I have been reading your posts a long time, "I believe in you Brother". Peace

Larry ***

Post Edited (lgm1942) : 8/29/2014 4:07:19 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 8/30/2014 12:44 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you Larry for keeping up with me and caring . You have bee. Able to give well and wise advice whenever I post something .

Thank you again
Posted 8/30/2014 12:52 AM (GMT 0)
I remember being sad when I was alone at college too. Do you have roommates? Just having another person in the same space can help, even if you're not interacting.
Posted 8/30/2014 3:56 AM (GMT 0)
SMU25,

I know what you mean. When my anxiety first started the only place I felt safe was at home. It hurt me in the long run because I would stay home and miss out on life. It made it harder to leave the house. God has His plan set for us and this is just another bumpy road. I have to believe that we are tested this way because there are great things ahead for us. He's there and so are your friends on this forum. Stay well and live your life! Don't let the enemy bring you down.

Good Luck!
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