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Posted 10/1/2014 1:46 AM (GMT 0)
Hello family!

As some of you know, I just came back from a nice little vacation with the wife and kids, I had not a single panic or anxiety attack during this time. (Thank you everyone)

This morning, back at home, at 4am my son needed some help in the bathroom- I got up and helped him, after putting him back in bed, in a matter of seconds everything started spinning- I had to get on my knees and crawl, it was such a bad panic attack I "hope". It hit me so hard that I tried to make it back into the bathroom to get some Klonopin, I just remember looking at the mirror and my pupils looked huge, like after an eye exam when they use those drops to dilate them.

I woke my wife up, whom is very understanding and supportive,hahaha yeah right! She said I'm going back to bed " call 911-if you need it".

All I could think about was, " this feels exactly like my first time" this shall and will pass. After 45 Min I was able to close my eyes again.

Do you remember your first " panic attack"?

Josh

Post Edited (joshwee) : 9/30/2014 8:03:18 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 10/1/2014 1:56 AM (GMT 0)
I sure do
I was a few weeks postpartum with my second child.
I was just minding my business watching tv when an overwhelming feeling of doom encompassed me. I felt like death was upon me. My heart started pounding, I felt shaky, weak and then I got tunnel vision. (oh boy I just realized this wasn't my first attack- my first attack was during my Confirmation when I had panic & tunnel vision but it was attributed to a "too tight pony tail or allergies)
Back to my "first diagnosed" panic attack. I remember I just wanted to be alone so without telling my husband how I was feeling I locked myself in the bathroom and somehow got over it. I guess I continued to have enough anxiety that I went to the dr. who prescribed xannax and I have had it on my person ever since. Thankfully for the most part just knowing it is there if I need it has kept me reasonably comfortable.
Posted 10/1/2014 3:57 AM (GMT 0)
Wow! Did your wife really say that! Don't feel bad .... When my anxiety attacks first started my wife was really concerned and 25 ER visits later she has become more lax.... Haha. That's fine, I know she still loves me!

I hang my head and am very ashamed but my first anxiety attack stemmed from an illegal drug use. I had also quit smoking cigarettes during that same period which I am sure didnt help my anxiety in any way.

I haven't felt the same since but I am proud to say that I am drug free.
Posted 10/1/2014 5:12 AM (GMT 0)
JW,

It sounds like you had a bit of vertigo with your attack. I have had this before.

The room literally spins! Sometimes the pupils can be affected...even displaying side to side movement , which really affects the vision and balance.

I get this symptom with the onset of a migraine. Do you deal with this issue?

I hope that you are feeling better now. Getting up in the middle of the night suddenly can be really dissorienting...surely the trigger for your attack. Hopefully tonight will be more peaceful!

S.C.
Posted 10/1/2014 5:15 AM (GMT 0)
feel better josh, sending healing thoughts your way. good sharing as well guys.
Posted 10/1/2014 10:23 AM (GMT 0)
Hi S.C.

Only once in my life I've had a migraine, the more I think about it, the more I think, that was probably my first panic attack, I'm not sure :p

Cornell,

Don't be ashamed I was at a party where the use of marijuana was heavy, I don't smoke ( I did a couple times back in college). Was fine all night, felt a bit of tingling but I guessed it was from the alcoholic drinks I was having, the following morning my nightmare started!

Thank you Happy Turtle!

I'm feeling better!


Josh
Posted 10/1/2014 10:39 AM (GMT 0)
:-)
Posted 10/1/2014 2:23 PM (GMT 0)
Joshwee,

I remember crawling back to bed many many times. I had to crawl up the stairs many a few times too. My anxiety was severely debilitating. I was especially dizzy as well. I figured out it was actually a benzo dependency symptom. When I wouldn't consistently take my Ativan, similar to your kolonipin, I would have severe dizzy/spinnies. Maybe try and see if the dizziness is related to the timing of taking your benzo? I had to wean myself off of my Ativan very very slowly, otherwise I faced dizzy/spinnies/panic attacks. Even when I finally managed to stop taking Ativan, I had to face one more severely debilitating attack without the Ativan. It has been free sailing (from the severe dizzies at least!) since then.

Just a thought! :) Hope you're feeling better!!!
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