Looking for some thoughts/suggestions. Will make this as brief and to the point as possible. I'm trying to stay very positive and hopeful. Don't want to be one who drones on and gets down. Thank you in advance for your opinions and support.
Facts about Me:
- Male, Age: 28
- 165lbs, 5'7
- Active, upbeat, social personality for the most part
- Currently taking Lexapro (and Xanax very rarely)
- Have not drank any alcohol in over a month, but used to drink socially each week
- Took Adderal for a year (2013) and quit it totally March 2014
- Stupidly used illegal substance three times in the past year. Three months apart. Last time was in February. Regret this very much. The experiences were always fun, but I do believe this is where my issues came from. Have never been the same since the last use in February. Please note. I am NOT an illegal drug user. This was an experimental time in my life that I wish had never happened. Live and learn, I suppose. I have been honest with all doctors I have seen about
this. None of them have given it much of a thought...all have shrugged this point off.
The Issue / My ExperienceSince February 2014 I have never felt the same. Never before did I have physically manifested anxiety. I was a worrier over things like college, dating and job...like everyone who has a good head on their shoulders. However, I never had blood pressure issues or any physically anxious symptoms.
I had a bad panic attack in Feb. 2014 and had been having small ones ever since. Things got so out of hand that I finally went for medicine at request of my family. Doctor put me on Lexapro and gave me Xanax for occasional use. Of course, I have research everything ad nauseum and am up to speed on how everything works and interacts.
The Lexapro has really helped keep the panic attacks at bay! I have been on it now for 4 weeks. Like many, I was unsure of it and researched a lot. It did make me feel spacey and weird at first. Sleepless nights were many. However, after about
week two, the medicine really began to work. For all of you out there...HAVE HOPE AND TRUST! You will begin to feel Lexapro's benefits.
I feel much better about 85% of the time, which I am very thankful for. However, what I absolutely cannot seem to rid myself of is this flighty/helium in the head feeling. Its quite hard to describe. I'm not dizzy, but I'm also not stable and grounded. I walk outside, look around, and the world just seems unbalanced and off in my perception. Part of me wants to call it derealization. I've conveyed that word and these feeling to doctors over and over, but they seem to dismiss it. When I take the Xanax, this sensation seems to go away for the most past. However, because of its addictive nature, I do not want to take Xanax daily.
Is there something I can do or take to get rid of this??As a young and very ambitious person I want to find a fix for this. I remember so many days in the past years of being able to get so much accomplished and having absolutely no walls to stop my motivation. I cannot accept that I am broken at this point in my life. I am still well functioning and very intelligent, but I now have these physical manifestations that unbalance me and make me very weird feeling. I am fine with taking medicine, as long as I can feel like myself and be a very productive person.
Wrapping this up...I, again, appreciate any insight, advice and support. I know many people have much more intense issues than me. My heart is with you all.
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