has anyone actually totally gotten over this?

Last night was a very bad night for me and this morning I've woken up feeling much the same way. I'm not feeling well and maybe that's playing a part. I'm sure much of it stems from my going back to work and all the anxiet surrounding that together with money worries. I know everyone keeps telling me ill get back to my good days and while I do believe that I'm just so darn tired of feeling the bad days. Its exhausting and draining and I just want to be free. I know that sounds dramatic but it's the way I feel right now. Is there anybody that ever totally gets past this? Or do I have to expect going through not knowing how my mind and body are going to act any given day forever?

Hi

Sorry to hear you are not feeling well at the moment and that your anxiety is high I know how debilitating that can be. I know some people who have had a full recovery but for me it is a life long struggle and one which I have to manage on a daily basis. I try and take each day as it comes and live in the moment the best I can I hope you start to feel better soon.

Hibee

The thought that I might feel this way for the rest of my life, or at least a very good portion is overwhelming. I just don't understand how I was fine and then now I'm like this? I have had issues with anxiety and depression before but nothing that too over my life the way this has. I really thought that increasing my meds had helped but apparently not.

To think that I was here at the beginning of the week feeling so good and supporting others and now I feel like this. It's a beautiful day out and I want to drive into town and take my kids to the park or something but I just feel sooooo uncomfortable. Just this weird, spaced out, shakey, am I losing it kind of feeling. I'm trying hard to remember what I did before when I was feeling like this or worse all the time but I just don't know. I guess I just fought through it. I'm tired of fighting though. I know it's stupid and pointless to ask why or to want to blame something but I just don't understand. There are all of the rest of the issues of life we have to try to get through and throwing this in makes it just that much harder. I feel like I've been trampled down and have nothing left to give. I just want to lead a normal life again. I'm so darn angry that it has to be this way. I guess that is something I have to work through in time.

I HATE the fact that I don't know where I'm going to be from day to day. I can be feeling great and then I feel horrid out of nowhere. It makes it so very hard to learn to trust that things will be okay. It just makes it so hard to live life. I sound like a drama queen and I really don't mean to, I'm just very much overwhelmed right now. I've started taking naps during the day to get away from feeling this way and I don't want to resort to that. I know I still have some anxiety about work and that may be playing a big part. I work retail at the service desk of a very busy big box retailer (think bullseye) and the crazy season will soon be upon us. It gets to me in the best of situations so I have no idea how I'm going to manage this year. I have no choice which is the hard part. Okay as always I've whined on forever. Thanks for listening, I'm just feeling beaten.

For what it's worth: YES!!

Sure I'm still anxious, highly strung, tightly wound...But I'm no longer depressed. I no longer feel out of control 24/7, obsessing over every little thing, teeming with health anxiety, hyper-vigilant,....etc. Things are much more managed, and while I may still have the "condition"....I can say with absolute honesty, that I feel better and stronger, that I'm in a MUCH better place, and have a much better grip on what's going on, and why.

Choose to believe because it's true..............It Gets Better!! :)





M.

Thank you. I'm just so worn down right now. When you feel so unlike yourself and so out of control of your own body it's just scary and tiring. It is just so beyond me how I could feel so completely different a few short days ago and now I'm back to this. Imagining that cycle for the rest of my life is just too much. I wish I understood how and why this came about in the first place but that's pointless. If I had cancer would I be asking that? I don't know maybe. I'm trying to keep going minute to minute. Went out and played football with my kids on this nice fall day. It felt good but I hate getting my heart going any faster when I'm feeling like this. I also have that feeling that I can't concentrate. I need to make dinnet and just that seems overwhelming. I'm so hoping part of this is my hormones.

I know I've said this before but I have been suffering from anxiety on and off since the age of seven. And yes, I thought I would never get out of it but the fact is that I have remained anxiety free for years at a time. Then when it returned I was a little more educated and ready to deal with it. Right now I'm going through a very rough period of anxiety myself but I KNOW that it will get better...it always does. This is very typical of anxiety - thinking you will never be free of it and that's just not true....you go through short and sometimes long periods of anxiety and then POOF, you're better, sometimes for years, months, and sometimes forever.
Take all the steps suggested on this site from people who know. Work hard to do the things that will bring you back to your old self. Good luck.

Once again thank you guys. Now that night has come the edge is off some. Sorry for the negativity it is so easy to be overcome sometimes. I go to my therapist Monday but I don't actually see a psych. I just get my meds from regular doctor. I've been on the higher dosage of prozac for exactly two weeks now. I'm not sure how long I should wait to see better results and if or when I should try something else or add something else? I'm weary of the psychiatrists here because I had poor experiences with the one years ago and I've heard bad things about the other one. I don't know of any other psychiatrists around here and I don't want to depend on my regular doctor when it comes to changing meds. I think I'll ask my therapist because she is very honest and I know she would tell me whether or not the drs there have gotten any better or maybe she knows of someone else. I also am thinking I need to not be so afraid of the xanax when I need it. When I did drugs as a teen I was in a terrible situation with no way out, no coping skills, and no hope. It was the only way I knew to keep myself alive. I am no longer that kid. I might be afraid but I will never give up because I have children I live for. I've dedicated my life to them not growing up the way I did. So I think I need to not be so afraid of taking the xanax or maybe find something else similar? I also know I need a higher dose but I get so afraid that it will be so good at taking these negative feelings away that I won't be able to be without it. Since the half a milligram dose I have now isn't doing a whole lot I guess I just don't know. Anywho these last rhree responses really got to me, in a good way. I know it sounds cheesy but its such a blessing to have eachother here to pick us up when we're down. It felt so good to be able to be so positive in my posts the other day and I can't wait to be there again. I'd be lying if I didn't admit that right now feeling good seems impossible but I know its not.