Too young to be unhappy

LOL. I hear ya!!!!!

Lord have mercy! Yes, I am currently doing psychotherapy with a psychologist..... Not, a pyschiatrist??? Is that right???

It's the pyschiatrist that prescribed me my meds....

LoL.... How's that for going off topic!

I also get the letter "c" and "s" confused! Hmmmm... Come to think of it, I also get "j" and "g" confused as well!

Thanks for laughing with me instead of at me (at least I hope)

You guys rock!

Cornell

 

This is GREAT news!!

Well done on going in, facing the uncomfortable beginning...but ultimately being able to open up and talk about your situation!  I've no doubt that this is just the start of great strides in recovery for you!!

Keep us posted on your progress and and day to day stuff you'd like support on as well.;)

S.C.

I've got this feeling that I can't shake. My anxiety levels are low today, besides my train ride to work that gets me every time. But it's a feeling so hard to describe. It's like, I feel like a universe confined into a body. Like it feels weird to be human, knowing that I'm a living being that was once capable of interacting with the world and the people in it, and now my focus is on my inner self wondering how I was able to live with such ease once. This feeling is a recent one, it came with my panic attack a couple of weeks ago, and I feel like I'll never be able to live again without dissecting my own consciousness. I think it's called personal self conscious, but it's a feeling so hard to describe that I find it hard to relate to these terms. I'm aware of my body at all times, and it's hard for me to not be. I want to focus on things externally, but the feeling is always with me. I guess it's very comparable to the feeling of "am I real?" That you get when you're in full panic. I'm telling myself that I won't always be so aware of myself, but dang it I just want it to go away!

I've had that depersonalization and derealization this year myself for the first time. It's terribly disturbing I know. I've been assured by my therapist & psychiatrist it is not uncommon with chronic anxiety or worry, does not mean you're going crazy and it will go away.

I found a helpful site about DP/DR: http://www.anxietycoach.com/depersonalization.html

The site made me feel less isolated and weird knowing what it is & that it's "just" from anxiety. I called it a third entity, anxiety & depression being the first 2. I know anxiety. I know depression. But I didn't know DP/DR. It wasn't anxiety per say or depression, but some in-between bizarre entity. To me, it was like feeling like a stranger in your own familiar world.

You are taking the right steps to treat your anxiety & with time, therapy and meds if you need them, it WILL go away.

Sending peace-
Lisa

I'm betting more people have or have had it but don't talk about it bc it's very hard to describe!!!

I'm lucky that my best friend who's had similar struggles as us, has also had this DP/DR. She's the one that described it as "feeling like a stranger in my own familiar world." I thought that was a perfect description!

But yeah, bc she had it & it's since gone, I felt less of a freak!

I don't know what I'm so afraid of. I have a good job that pays the bills and then some. I moved up so fast and had very little training for the position. I'm under qualified, I put a lot of pressure on myself to do what I think it takes to get the job done based on my own ideals. I'm probably putting so much unnecessary stress on myself and it's wearing down my passion and attitude. I guess I'm afraid that I went into the wrong career, that if my passion is disintegrating already how am I going to do this for the rest of my life. My only goal in life is to be happy, whatever that means.

I am female, single, no birth control and no men in the near future for me!

Hi,

because of being emotonally fatigued its hard to think straight. Its hard to think in a reasoned way because your emotions are exagerrated. You may think something like whats the meaning of life and a heavy weight comes over you. Whereas before when you were emotionally fresh youd think it and a calm philosphical feeling of the great wonders of life may have come over you.

But insetad because of emotional fatigue youre swayed by the moment. One moment feeling a certain way about something and the next feelings totally different about something similar. Its hard to make decisions as your feelings change so quickly.

Also because of mental fatigue you cant think your way out of things like before, its just too much effort, and you feel confused and tired, and may get headaches.

So at the moment I dont recommend putting much importance on making decisions, instead focus on rest and not fighting how you feel, but instead accepting it and carrying on about your day in a relaxed way.

Once you have more energy youll be in a better position to make more balanced sensible decisions.

I am following Dr Weekes method I am making good progress. And Im sure that you guys can too.

Of course I have difficult moments and days but like Dr Weekes says, ¨You´re never defeated as long as you´re willing to continue trying!

Best,

Jon

And the good feelings are gone now. Started thinking about my own consciousness and immediately started to panic. I don't know why I can't let this go. I don't want to live this way. It's like, once you start to think this way it feels like you'll never be the same. Feeling really down and like I'm incapable of being a normal person.

I just don't know.

Thank you for the advice Lisa, I definitely don't have any motivation to do much of anything but reading seems to help get my mind in another place. I'm so exhausted all the time, but I will say that my day started off great. I had to be to work much earlier than usual and had to cater a private party which went off without a hitch even though I spent a lot of energy worrying about it. If I didn't spend my entire day with anxiety, I suppose it's an improvement. Trying to accept and embrace these weird feelings but that's a large task for sure.

I also have a habit of googling stories of people who have the same symptoms as I do (have to reassure myself that I'm not crazy!) And I found that many people actually try to achieve this feeling of hyper self awareness that I so badly want to get rid of. I never would have thought it to be a desirable state of mind!

I had a particularly rough night last night, thinking again about my consciousness, I don't know why life seems like a new idea to me. Talked to my therapist this morning and she gave me some coping skills to practice (cbt) but it was great knowing that there is always someone to talk to in times of need. I'm trying to reconnect my relationship with God asking that he guide me through this and take my anxiety away. I used to be a very spiritual person, but once I got into high school I got more distant. Trying to explore spirituality and rekindle my faith through prayer and gospel. It brings me comfort but I still feel so distant. Seeking advice on how to grow spiritually and become closer to God. My therapist suggested I talk to someone that has strong faith, but I come from a family that never went to church and didn't put an emphasis on spiritual guidance.