what is this Thats ruining my life

I'm razin from Bangladesh

i dont know or Maybe I've forgotten to start a proper conversation anymore and right now i aint in my right mind cause the curse has drawn all my physical and mental energy out Thats what I'm about to write the story of my life being so miserable at this stage of life

right now I'm sitting on my bed thinking of my misfortune cause it better to blame my fate at this stage

its been almost a year that I'm sick and this sickness doesnt seem to cure i know its pointless for me to write here as i aint demanding any sort of help of assistance if someone provides I'll be more than happy but its just sharing my story

its a fact that I used to get sick frequent even in the past but i never paid heed but what came to my concern back in last January that its normal i aint what i used to be I've been changed my bodily function aint proper anymore my symptoms started to gather one by one what i haven't done I was pretty sure that i was going to die i was convinced that something was seriously wrong with me i used to cry alone i managed money and rushed to doctors i started having tests but doctors were unable to make a proper diagnosis i was kept untreated it worried me more what I've been through in past 6months will be memorable forever its like living in Hell the immense worry and pain i've been through still haunts me still I'm living wits massive complications and looking forward to find a solution my life is even more miserable as i live in Bangladesh this country is the worst country ever .its so unhyginec and unhealthy what i have investigated by researching the medical forums and pages i may be suffering from an auto immune disease most possibly thyroid . My symptoms are given below:


heart palpitation, fluttering , throbbing , ectopic beat strong pulse rapid pulse movement
chest tightness breathing problem (i have asthma since childhood)
chest pain
muscle twitching muscle pain pain everywhere

feeling sore worn out and broken so weak
numbness tingling
headache dizziness
heat intolerance (i cant even tolerate light heat)
chills feeling feverish
temperature imbalance
red eyes watery eyes vision problem cant look at bright light cant look through sunlight
weakness in hands and legs

nausea bowel trouble
excessive gas production
constipation/loose stool

feel so sleepy all the time and i cant stop yawning sometimes. I get easily cold or easily hot. My hands and feet gets so hot at times but when i go out in cold days they feel like freezing. And i get chillS
feeling so anxious/nervous/brain foggyNess i Forget everything my memory has gone down too low i used to have very strong memory now i Forget even day to DAY things i Forget normal stuffs normal words i Forget names equations datas infos movies that I've watched i Forget ppl's name their addresses even when we met i Forget i just Forget everythin i cant concentrate i cant pay attention i sweat so much yet i get so cold my hands and feet shake i tremble my forehead gets so hot my hair is falling out i am losing weight i get frequent panic attacks I'm sad depressed and off 24/7 my vision is so poorly i get runny nose sneeze much sometimes in a word my whole body has been working wrong for past 6months althougt it even started earlier now mylife has been so worn out i lost places i got fired up from everywhere my parents my society everywhere I'm now an ****** for being this much sick i wish i could heal i wish i could get back my energy someone help me plz


investigations that I've done with help of some doctors &the knowledge gained by going through lots of web pages medical groups forums journals and many more online stuffs:-


I've ruled out all possible causes and tests

blood tests done including CBC, electrolytes sugar thyroid panel (tsh,tt3,tt4) , billirubin creatinine
x rays of chest sinus and KUB region
ultrasonogram of whole abdomen
urine for re
ECG of heart
ct scan of brain


all the tests came back normal and my restless unstoppable pain and nervousness just stretched ahead

i suspected million times it can caused by thyroid as I've been researching on thyroid disorder for so long all my symptoms just make me remind of thyroid . All my symptoms indicate hyperthyroidism. For instance my tsh has dropped in 2 years total t3 and t4 both r in range though but what I've learned is someone can be hyper even with normal lab results besides that free t3 is the key indicator . But i couldn't get to measure that

my tsh was 2.06 uIU in 2012 and it has been dropped down to 1.1 uIU back in June this year i always have had hyper symptoms from the past i use to sweat way more than other ppl but it never bothered me i thought Thats how my body was but this year all other complications gathered one by one . I suspect i may have an auto immune disorder Thats ruining my life. I'm so down and poorly lately however i managed to lead life before with mild less severe problems but right now its uncontrollable. I have days on which i get my symptoms less tiring i mean some days r lil good some days r worse i get much sleep but yet I'm tired my appetite is not settled sometimes i get so hungry sometimes i starve I'm losing weight lately. My skin is thin dry and so sensitive my whole body is so sensitive I'm sad sick anxious all the time thoughts race throughout my head sometimes i feel like my heads about to explode my vision is so poor i get itchy watery eyes everymorning after i wake up my eyes burn and get irritated easily and stays slight red sometimes i cant focus on a thing my brain is dysfunctioning my head hurts and my body is so weary like if u hit me mildly i feel like I've been hit by a bus or something even when i lay straight it slightly hurt my body aint flexible i cant breathe well after i eat it gets worse anyway in order to keep my writing short i have to stop now i guess


by the way my ESR is slightly elevated.

ESR (in 2012): 5mm (1st hr)
ESR(last June): 21mm (1st hr)


THANKS FOR READING THIS

-RAZIN

Hi RSS and welcome!

I am sorry to hear of your challenges with feeling sick/symptoms.

I would recommend continued monitoring of your thryroid function for the future...

...but beside that, has your doctor suggested that anxiety treatment would be a good option for you to pursue?

As Hibee mentioned, there are many ways to help treat anxiety and the symptoms is causes.

I hope you get the answers that you need soon. Post with us anytime.

Scaredy Cat

btw i had a Hiv test done too back in July and it was negative. I have severe Hiv scare too this is debilitating

thank u I'm just having a break right now living with all the symptoms i struggled pretty hard to reveal the hidden cause of my problems u know here in my country things aint that much developed doctors dont care that much. And u gonna have to spend a lot of money to get medical service

I have most all your symptoms and I'm wondering if you might have fibromyalgia. You can talk to your doctor about it.
Symptoms of fibromyalgia include:

Chronic muscle pain, muscle spasms, or tightness
Moderate or severe fatigue and decreased energy
Insomnia or waking up feeling just as tired as when you went to sleep
Stiffness upon waking or after staying in one position for too long
Difficulty remembering, concentrating, and performing simple mental tasks ("fibro fog")
Abdominal pain, bloating, nausea, and constipation alternating with diarrhea (irritable bowel syndrome)
Tension or migraine headaches
Jaw and facial tenderness
Sensitivity to one or more of the following: odors, noise, bright lights, medications, certain foods, and cold
Feeling anxious or depressed
Numbness or tingling in the face, arms, hands, legs, or feet
Increase in urinary urgency or frequency (irritable bladder)
Reduced tolerance for exercise and muscle pain after exercise
A feeling of swelling (without actual swelling) in the hands and feet

i've been in this confusing over the years my body is totally broken down . Sickness is accompanying me 24/7 and Theres no way to heal

Hey guys I'm back here i started feeling the old symptoms coming back couple of days ago. I have been off this site since November i guess i was dealing with just stomach issue tiredness and aches lately anyway i was coping up though but i recently saw my old symptoms are coming back like muscle twitching cramping hands freezing and a lot more.

trust me dear it aint anxiety . I'm a 21 years old guy I've been strong all my life before 2013 Theres no reason for me to get anxiety . Its all caused by something in my body . Anxiety doesnt cause bowel bladder problem and all these numbness and tingling I'm so so tired . It reminds me of last year the same time i was this sick. Always laying on bed . I'm so upset why my life has to be so pathetic.

Hi Razin

Welcome back to the forum.

Anxiety can cause bowel and bladder problems along with a whole host of other physical symptoms.

Work on lowering your anxiety and you may find your other symptoms reduce as well.

Hibee

no i dont think its thyroid anymore . It would be unlikely my mom had her thyroid tested and shes good i am unlikely to have hyperthyroidsm. Anyway what it could be what it could be I'm always wondering I've been feeling so awful lately . Same old symptoms r back like a little numbness all over my body not actually numbnes its hard to describe like Theres ant crawling or something i am off balance at times i sweat way more like a whole lot of sweating and my symptoms goes on. But the most remarkable point is my bowel issue. Its always bad always playing up

While what you are experiencing may not be anxiety, you should consider the possibility. I know it's hard to believe at times, and I still struggle with accepting some of what I've been through as just anxiety.

Years ago when I first went through a bad time with anxiety, my main symptom was numbness. It was intense, and horrible. I had so many tests, and they were all normal. I was convinced it was a physical ailment but after time I calmed down and the numbness subsided.

Last year during the worst experience I ever had I was convinced I was sick, I'm still not totally sure it was anxiety. My heart raced, palpitations, sweating all the time, hair falling out, nauseous, no appetite, extreme fatuige, bad memory, muscle aches and pains, dizziness, off balance feeling, stomach pain, gas, body shaking that was sometimes severe, numbness, feeling extreme heat on my chest.. It was a nightmare.

The thing is, after a couple months or so on anxiety meds the symtpoms subsided. Completely. Your case might be different, but since anxiety treatment wouldn't do you any harm, you might want to consider it.

Regardless of what you decide, good luck, and I hope you feel batter soon.