Tonight has been rough for some reason

Evening everyone, I hope you are all doing well today.

I felt the need to post just because I've had a panicky/anxious day. I ended up driving to my parents, which wasn't too horrible of a drive until it started getting dark out (I left later than I had planned). Between feeling chest pangs every so often and just feeling extremely anxious, I was pretty stressed by the time I arrived here.

After eating dinner and doing gifts, I've sat around relaxing and watching television, but it seems every so often I'll get one of those twinges that takes the breath away and makes me feel faint for a split second. Naturally (unfortunately!) I headed to Google, even though at this point I know what all the results for my various searches will say. I'm so so so sick of being afraid; I'm not sure if I'll be able to sleep tonight because of my fears. By now I know that this is mostly all anxiety, but I keep having doubts (What if something has changed since last time I had an EKG/blood work?) and it's so frustrating. I'm actually really looking forward to seeing my therapist again, but that's not until January 2nd.

Sorry for venting, I just had to get it out. I'm hear to listen if anyone else is having a tough night as well!

Hi Zax

Sorry to hear your anxiety has been causing you problems today it can be a real pain can't it? Try your best not to google your symptoms which I know is hard as I do the same myself but it will only make things worse for you and cause more anxiety.

Use any coping skills you have learned in your therapy sessions and hopefully you will have a better day today.

Hibee

Hey Zax I am sorry to hear you go through this. I hope you really feel better soon

Hello all, first off thank you for the kind words....

I got through the night ok. I ended up falling asleep around 4 am. I actually slept pretty well, and my morning wasn't too bad. The thoughts are literally the worst part...normally if I'm distracted I'm fine. This afternoon my Dad and I went to visit my grandmother who is living in an assisted living home; she's 92, but still going strong. However, just being in that environment put me in a funk, as I had to hear about like three people who passed away this week (all over 80), and it just made me scared. I really wish I knew what triggered all of this fear! At one point while I was there I thought I was breathing more than I should, but I don't know if that's in my head or not. I've also noticed that throughout the past week or so, I've been burping alot (sorry if TMI), not normal burps, like I'm almost forcing out a handful in a row. I'm assuming this is anxiety-related, and that forcing them out=sucking in more air=more burps altogether.

I did contact my doctor's office today and made an appointment for a checkup/wellness check for next Tuesday. I'm going to ask him while I'm there if he can do the troponin blood test, because I have a feeling if I get clear results from that again (especially after these latest pangs/twinges) I'll be forced to acknowledge that it's not my heart.

I'm not really looking forward to driving back home in the AM, as I'll leave here around 9am because I have to be at work at 2 pm (drive is about 3 hours). Hopefully the weather is nice and the day driving alleviates some of my panic in regards to that. In the meantime, I'll probably have some aspirin/Bayer in my pocket just in case.

Some good news? Along with seeing my parents and Grandma, I got to visit with my parent's dogs Henry and Desmond. I hadn't seen them in about 6 months, and they're always so excited. I'll try to post a photo on our Facebook page later if I can! Also, we exchanged our gifts since I'm leaving tomorrow, and I got alot of stuff I needed. It must be a sign that I'm getting old when I get excited about receiving an electric kettle and boots as opposed nerf guns and video games

Thanks again for the kind words everyone. I'm trying to send good thoughts to all of you as you have me.

TheZaxattack..it's like everything you said and felt I could of written myself! I am the exact same way as you. I'm 30 years old and have an extreme heart anxiety fear..I also getting those chest pains even after being to the ER 7 times the last few months over it and they find nothing wrong. It's still hard to believe nothing is wrong when u feel like though. I understand completely. Besides chest pains, do u get any other heart issues? I get the pounding heart after eating a lot, or just the general uncomfortable/pounding feeling even when my heart isn't actually beating that fast..it's very exhausting & i'm also sick to death of worrying!! Hopefully 2015 is better for all of us

TZA,

Glad to hear that you are managing well and getting through...great job!!

May you continue to feel better and better. I wish you a calm and symptom free holiday!! :)

S.C.