New here with Anxiety :/

Hi , been lurking here a bit figured I join
I'm 30 years old and been suffering from anxiety since I was 18-19
It was bad back then when I had my first attack
It was so bad I never left my small town where I live for 3 years straight
Then it got better I started going places but still I would be cautious and always worried I was going to have a moment...
Doctor way back first prescribed me Paxil and Zoloft
I never took them cause they made me feel ugly....that was years ago

Now fast forward to now since I got news im going to be a Dad :) ...it's came back and hit me pretty good now lol I know it's crazy but I just worry too too much I'm very
Anti social I don't like crowds I can't sit still very long it sucks bad :(
I'm hardly eating ,legs feel weak shaky
I lost interest in my daily activities (i mechanic ) for a living
I lose breath, just feel exhausted its crazy ,
I'll be honest I don't exercise at all
I'm hoping after my gf has our son it will all go away cause it started triggering once we started going to Dr appointments etc I just couldn't sit still then constantly thinking thinking...and it makes me feel bad cause I definately want to be by my girlfriends side....
What's always on my mind is
"Am I going to be able to be in the delivery room" the "what if what if" negative thoughts...
Doctor gave me smallest dose of Aprazolam
It seems to help
Cause I had a horrible moment other day felt like I was gonna pass out

Sorry for the long post...any advise tips would be appreciated very much cause I'm tired of suffering from this...I'm about to be a Dad and want to be the best possible...
God bless

Post Edited (GilBertztx) : 1/5/2015 6:12:48 PM (GMT-7)

Thank u for the link I will definately read and look over.
Quick question have U heard of a natural herb called Kava Kava? After some research it pops up as a good herb for anxiety...
I ordered some and it will be here tomorrow
Can't wait to try it ,I hate depending on prescription drugs but some times I have no choice

Blu's Mama said...
Hi and welcome!
Have you ever considered essential oils? Like lavendar and peppermint essential oils! They do WONDERS for anxiety and the state of the mind as a whole

Hi ,thanks no I have not but will really look into them , knowing me I will buy them and try them.
Thanks so much

GB.,

Please be careful with the use of the Kava Kava...

Ask your doctor or pharmacist about the advised dosage, as over use has been linked to liver damage.

Not trying to scare or discourage you...just be informed, as even all natural herbal remedies are not without risk if not taken correctly.

S.C.

Blu's Mama said...
They're a good homeopathic remedy for anything that ails you :). Some oils would be safe for your girlfriend during her pregnancy. Lavendar to reduce stress levels for sure.

That's good to know ,Would u know a good place to purchase them? Thanks

Try Amazon. Cheap & easy

GilBertztx, do not give up hope,please! when you talk to your DR..please make sure you let him know that you do not like they way they make you feel.
I am 55 and have had panic and anxiety for about half my life,mostly around but not limited to this time of yr, I have PTSD's for many reasons the biggest being shellshocked from some military deployments,fast forward to 99 and had tried almost if not all SSRIs available up till that point none of which helped,I would say most made it worse if anything.In 1999 Dr. Decide o try Effexor on me,I had the most terrifying episode I could ever imagine,I woke up in the middle of the night while in Vegas and wanted to kill the woman I loved,it was the most horrifying experience of my life.I went down to the front desk and had them lock up my sidearm .I never even went back to pick it up,and it end my relationship and the saddest part was 9 months later she had my daughter,but after that first feeling of wanting to do this horrible thing to her nothing was ever the same,I even called my DR..back home and told my gal if I did anything strange or Scarry to just leave me wherever we might be.
I point I guess is do not take anything new or unusual behaviors that you have,note them and take your concerns to your DR...and make sure they take you seriously,I do not believe my DR. Ever did take me serious. This is not to say do not try anything that may help you overcome this crippling problem,
The best of luck to you and remind your DR...that this life is not a dress rehearsal,that there are no do overs.
P.S. they finally did get it right,in the form of Valium type meds or as people call them Benzo's
Sorry about such a long reply,I thought it needed to be said.

Hey Gilbert and Welcome to Healing Well family!

You will get great support here (you already got fantastic advice above) :)
So keep on posting an keep us updated.

Sending healing thoughts to you <3

Welcome to the group!

Pike's,

No problem..all stories (within the rules) and experiences are open for sharing here! This is an important part of your journey, and I am glad that you find this a place where you are comfortable to talk about your story. I just like to always present both sides, so as to make a big picture scenario for those reading, who may have had, or hope for a different
outcome.:)

Please continue to read, post, and check out our Resources, so that you can benefit from all that our site has to offer.

Glad to have you aboard!

S.C.

Gil !

welcome! I am also fairly new here.. And my first Couple of posts were Out There.. (like BiNG! BANG! BOOM!) LOL..

But yes! I say why not try the new meds, they just might help. And especially with your baby boy almost here, you dont want to miss that. Labor is a very special moment. Has your girlfriend practiced her breathing so when labor comes?? The only reason why im asking ,is because it might be a good idea to practice the labor breathing methods with her so when the time comes it wont be or feel so overwhelming. Just an idea .

once again welcome and congratulations to you and your girlfriend on the new little blessing!

GB,

Congratulations on taking this step towards wellness for yourself and your family!

Remember to use the coping skills found in our Resources to help you to get through the start up phase. Don't anticipate any side effects, but know that using techniques such as breathing and meditation/relaxation exercises can ensure a smooth adjustment to your medication.

Best wishes to you and your partner on the upcoming birth of your baby!! Let us know of the news when you can. You are going to do great.:)

S.C.

Congratulatations!!!

Such great news, and it sounds like you did an amazing job in your role as coach! ;)

I am so happy for you and your new family!

May you continue to do well in your anxiety management. Keep working towards your goals...you are definitely on your way.

Post with us anytime for anxiety support...we are here to listen and encourage anytime!

Give your little guy a cuddle from us...I bet he is super sweet.:)

S.C.