just saying.

just letting you know that i am very depressed. i know this is an anxiety panic disorder, of which i do live with albeit i am very depressed. i went out of the house yesterday after isolating myself for 3 weeks. classic stuff, sleeping, not eating much.........see shrink friday. just thought i'd let you guys know. still posting......it is good for me.

just seeing fighting words keep me going. thanks. playing some inspirational steve vai at the moment. have done dishes and hung clothes on the line and spoke with my sis. she went through my cupboard and fridge and i got told off for not eating. she does my shopping so there is no way of pulling a fast one her. she's too saavy anyway. i just had a coffee. dose not mean much, but i love coffee, first one in 3 weeks. thanks for your suppoer daesin.

here for you. your post means so much. i too send healing thoughts your way.

yep, time for an anti depressant to boost the lamictal. we discussed last appointment lexapro, i didn't like the brain zaps when i was last on it. but i will try again. if it is offered. will advise. thanks.

cheers. even through the fog of depressive tidings i am here for you all. must think about bed soon. a little idiot box, then time as the chronic pain forum have called it for, 'the alien face hugger'.

cheers. the forums have taught me a lot. you guys and the mods. i have my moments, but i try my best. you buggers (my hw buddies) are very important to me. i did 2 and a bit hours on the alien face hugger. just had a decent feed. that is good because i have been hardly eating. i am looking forward to seeing my shrink. i stopped ages ago at looking at sites that i thought were provoking my anxiety, i new a little about lexapro, even tried it for a few weeks many moons ago. it is very suitable for anxiety and major depression, thus i will seek input from my shrink regarding it. we had a positive discussion at our previous consult.

off topic. my brother, who has been very unwell for a long period, and is under a lot of community care has been refered to a community care unit. long term supported inpatient psychiatric supervised care. this is what he needs. he is unaware of himself and his surroundings and is very delusional about concepts regarding his life, and very irrational and deluded fears. i am glad as he will begin intense treatment in an environment conducive to his needs. for me, that will reduce some anxiety.

just thought i would share, hope it is okay. mum is unsafe as he is a big boy and is at times very aggressive. i have gone down a few times to keep in check. luckily he is scared of his big brother. he is over six foot and built like a tank. i am short but stocky. i am not violent, hate violence but i would protect mum.

healing thoughts.

THANK YOU. it is the wee hours. done my usual 2 hours and bit of cpap will go back in awhile.

Thinking of you. I hope your appt coming up helps. You made me laugh w the "alien face hugger" comment. Took me a minute to figure out what you meant. :)

thank you all my dear friends. 6.35am. no use going to bed now.

:) cheers. hot shower has given me a little vigor.

you keep strong to weary.

thanks my dear friends. did another 2 hours on the alien face hugger and again awoke with a terrible dream. i sort of freaked out earlier tonight. am better. cheers to a certain hw buddy for their help.